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Трумэн Капоте. Луговая арфа (engl)
Truman Capote. The grass harp
For miss Sook Faulk
In memory of affections deep and true
When was it that first I heard of the grass harp? Long before the
autumn we lived in the China tree; an earlier autumn then; and of course it
was Dolly who told me, no one else would have known to call it that, a grass
harp.
If on leaving town you take the church road you soon will pass a
glaring hill of bonewhite slabs and brown burnt flowers: this is the Baptist
cemetery. Our people, Talbos, Fenwicks, are buried there; my mother lies
next to my father, and the graves of kinfolk, twenty or more, are around
them like the prone roots of a stony tree. Below the hill grows a field of
high Indian grass that changes color with the seasons: go to see it in the
fall, late September, when it has gone red as sunset, when scarlet shadows
like firelight breeze over it and the autumn winds strum on its dry leaves
sighing human music, a harp of voices.
Beyond the field begins the darkness of River Woods. It must have been
on one of those September days when we were there in the woods gathering
roots that Dolly said: Do you hear? that is the grass harp, always telling a
story-it knows the stories of all the people on the hill, of all the people
who ever lived, and when we are dead it will tell ours, too.
After my mother died, my father, a traveling man, sent me to live with
his cousins, Verena and Dolly Talbo, two unmarried ladies who were sisters.
Before that, I'd not ever been allowed into their house. For reasons no one
ever got quite clear, Verena and my father did not speak. Probably Papa
asked Verena to lend him some money, and she refused; or perhaps she did
make the loan, and he never returned it You can be sure that the trouble was
over money, because nothing else would have mattered to them so much,
especially Verena, who was the richest person in town. The drugstore, the
drygoods store, a filling station, a grocery, an office building, all this
was hers, and the earning of it had not made her an easy woman.
Anyway, Papa said he would never set foot inside her house. He told
such terrible things about the Talbo ladies. One of the stories he spread,
that Verena was a morphodyte, has never stopped going around, and the
ridicule he heaped on Miss Dolly Talbo was too much even for my mother: she
told him he ought to be ashamed, mocking anyone so gentle and harmless.
I think they were very much in love, my mother and father. She used to
cry every time he went away to sell his frigidaires. He married her when she
was sixteen; she did not live to be thirty. The afternoon she died Papa,
calling her name, tore off all his clothes and ran out naked into the yard.
It was the day after the funeral that Verena came to the house. I
remember the terror of watching her move up the walk, a whip-thin, handsome
woman with shingled peppersalt hair, black, rather virile eyebrows and a
dainty cheekmole. She opened the front door and walked right into the house.
Since the funeral. Papa had been breaking things, not with fury, but
quietly, thoroughly: he would amble into the parlor, pick up a china figure,
muse over it a moment, then throw it against the wall. The floor and stairs
were littered with cracked glass, scattered silverware; a ripped nightgown,
one of my mother's, hung over the banister.
Verena's eyes flicked over the debris. "Eugene, I want a word with
you," she said in that hearty, coldly exalted voice, and Papa answered:
"Yes, sit down, Verena. I thought you would come."
That afternoon Dolly's friend Catherine Creek came over and packed my
clothes, and Papa drove me to the impressive, shadowy house on Talbo Lane.
As I was getting out of the car he tried to hug me, but I was scared of him
and wriggled out of his arms. I'm sorry now that we did not hug each other.
Because a few days later, on his way up to Mobile, his car skidded and fell
fifty feet into the Gulf. When I saw him again there were silver dollars
weighting down his eyes.
Except to remark that I was small for my age, a runt, no one had ever
paid any attention to me; but now people pointed me out, and said wasn't it
sad? that poor little Collin Fenwickl I tried to look pitiful because I knew
it pleased people: every man in town must have treated me to a Dixie Cup or
a box of Crackerjack, and at school I got good grades for the first time. So
it was a long while before I calmed down enough to notice Dolly Talbo.
And when I did I fell in love.
Imagine what it must have been for her when first I came to the house,
a loud and prying boy of eleven. She skittered at the sound of my footsteps
or, if there was no avoiding me, folded like the petals of shy-lady fern.
She was one of those people who can disguise themselves as an object in the
room, a shadow in the comer, whose presence is a delicate happening. She
wore the quietest shoes, plain virginal dresses with hems that touched her
ankles. Though older than her sister, she seemed someone who, like myself,
Verena had adopted. Pulled and guided by the gravity of Verena's planet, we
rotated separately in the outer spaces of the house.
In the attic, a slipshod museum spookily peopled with old display
dummies from Verena's drygoods store, there were many loose boards, and by
inching these I could look down into almost any room. Dolly's room, unlike
the rest of the house, which bulged with fat dour furniture, contained only
a bed, a bureau, a chair: a nun might have lived there, except for one fact:
the walls, everything was painted an outlandish pink, even the floor was
this color. Whenever I spied on Dolly, she usually was to be seen doing one
of two things: she was standing in front of a mirror snipping with a pair of
garden shears her yellow and white, already brief hair; either that, or she
was writing in pencil on a pad of coarse Kress paper. She kept wetting the
pencil on the tip of her tongue, and sometimes she spoke aloud a sentence as
she put it down: Do not touch sweet foods like candy and salt will kill you
for certain. Now I'll tell you, she was writing letters. But at first this
correspondence was a puzzle to me. After all, her only friend was Catherine
Creek, she saw no one else and she never left the house, except once a week
when she and Catherine went to River Woods where they gathered the
ingredients of a dropsy remedy Dolly brewed and bottled. Later I discovered
she had customers for this medicine throughout the state, and it was to them
that her many letters were addressed.
Verena's room, connecting with Dolly's by a passage, was rigged up like
an office. There was a rolltop desk, a library of ledgers, filing cabinets.
After supper, wearing a green eyeshade, she would sit at her desk totaling
figures and turning the pages of her ledgers until even the street-lamps had
gone out. Though on diplomatic, political terms with many people, Verena had
no close friends at all. Men were afraid of her, and she herself seemed to
be afraid of women. Some years before she had been greatly attached to a
blonde jolly girl called Maudie Laura Murphy, who worked for a bit in the
post office here and who finally married a liquor salesman from St. Louis.
Verena had been very bitter over this and said publicly that the man was no
account. It was therefore a surprise when, as a wedding present, she gave
the couple a honeymoon trip to the Grand Canyon. Maudie and her husband
never came back; they opened a filling station nearby Grand Canyon, and from
time to time sent Verena Kodak snapshots of themselves. These pictures were
a pleasure and a grief. There were nights when she never opened her ledgers,
but sat with her forehead leaning in her hands, and the pictures spread on
the desk. After she had put them away, she would pace around the room with
the lights turned off, and presently there would come a hurt rusty crying
sound as though she'd tripped and fallen in the dark.
That part of the attic from which I could have looked down into the
kitchen was fortified against me, for it was stacked with trunks like bales
of cotton. At that time it was the kitchen I most wanted to spy upon; this
was the real living room of the house, and Dolly spent most of the day there
chatting with her friend Catherine Creek. As a child, an orphan, Catherine
Creek had been hired out to Mr. Uriah Talbo, and they had all grown up
together, she and the Talbo sisters, there on the old farm that has since
become a railroad depot Dolly she called Dollyheart, but Verena she called
That One. She lived in the back yard in a tin-roofed silvery little house
set among sunflowers and trellises of butterbean vine. She claimed to be an
Indian, which made most people wink, for she was dark as the angels of
Africa. But for all I know it may have been true: certainly she dressed like
an Indian. That is, she had a string of turquoise beads, and wore enough
rouge to put out your eyes; it shone on her cheeks like votive taillights.
Most of her teeth were gone; she kept her jaws jacked up with cotton
wadding, and Verena would say Dammit Catherine, since you can't make a
sensible sound why in creation won't you go down to Doc Crocker and let him
put some teeth in your head? It was true that she was hard to understand:
Dolly was the only one who could fluently translate her friend's muffled,
mumbling noises. It was enough for Catherine that Dolly understood her: they
were always together and everything they had to say they said to each other:
bending my ear to an attic beam I could hear the tantalizing tremor of their
voices flowing like sapsyrup through the old wood.
To reach the attic, you climbed a ladder in the linen closet, the
ceiling of which was a trapdoor. One day, as I started up, I saw that the
trapdoor was swung open and, listening, heard above me an idle sweet
humming, like the pretty sounds small girls make when they are playing
alone. I would have turned back, but the humming stopped, and a voice said:
"Catherine?"
"Collin," I answered, showing myself.
The snowflake of Dolly's face held its shape; for once she did not
dissolve. "This is where you come-we wondered," she said, her voice frail
and crinkling as tissue paper. She had the eyes of a gifted person, kindled,
transparent eyes, luminously green as mint jelly: gazing at me through the
attic twilight they admitted, timidly, that I meant her no harm. "You play
games up here-in the attic? I told Verena you would be lonesome." Stooping,
she rooted around in the depths of a barrel. "Here now," she said, "you can
help me by looking in that other barrel. I'm hunting for a coral castle; and
a sack of pearl pebbles, all colors. I think Catherine will like that, a
bowl of goldfish, don't you? For her birthday. We used to have a bowl of
tropical fish-devils, they were: ate each other up. But I remember when we
bought them; we went all the way to Brew-ton, sixty miles. I never went
sixty miles before, and I don't know that I ever will again. Ah see, here it
is, the castle." Soon afterwards I found the pebbles; they were like kernels
of corn or candy, and: "Have a piece of candy," I said, offering the sack.
"Oh thank you," she said, "I love a piece of candy, evea when it tastes like
a pebble."
We were friends. Dolly and Catherine and me. I was eleven, then I was
sixteen. Though no honors came my way, those were the lovely years.
I never brought anyone home with me, and I never wanted to. Once I took
a girl to the picture show, and on the way home she asked couldn't she come
in for a drink of water. If I'd thought she was really thirsty I would've
said affl right; but I knew she was faking just so she could see inside the
house the way people were always wanting to, and so I told her she better
wait until she got home. She said: "All the world knows Dolly Talbo's gone,
and you're gone too." I liked that girl well enough, but I gave her a shove
anyway, and she said her brother would fix my wagon, which he did: right
here at the comer of my mouth I've still got a scar where he hit me with a
Coca-Cola bottle.
I know: Dolly, they said, was Verena's cross, and said, too, that more
went on in the house on Talbo Lane than a body cared to think about. Maybe
so. But those were the lovely years.
On winter afternoons, as soon as I came in from school, Catherine
hustled open a jar of preserves, while Dolly put a foot-high pot of coffee
on the stove and pushed a pan of bis" cuits into the oven; and the oven,
opening, would let out a hot vanilla fragrance, for Dolly, who lived off
sweet foods, was always baking a pound cake, raisin bread, some kind of
cookie or fudge: never would touch a vegetable, and the only meat she liked
was the chicken brain, a pea-sized thing gone before you've tasted it. What
with a woodstove and an open fireplace, the kitchen was warm as a cow's
tongie. The nearest winter came was to frost the windows with its zero blue
breath. If some wizard would like to make me a present, let him give me a
bottle filled with the voices of that kitchen, the ha ha ha and fire
whispering, a bottle brimming with its buttery sugary bakery smells-though
Catherine smelled like a sow in the spring. It looked more like a cozy
parlor than a kitchen; there was a hook rug on the floor, rocking chairs;
ranged along the walls were pictures of kittens, an enthusiasm of Dolly's;
there was a geranium plant that bloomed, then bloomed again all year round,
and Catherine's goldfish, in a bowl on the oilcloth-covered table, fanned
their tails through the portals of the coral castle. Sometimes we worked
jigsaw puzzles, dividing the pieces among us, and Catherine would hide
pieces if she thought you were going to finish your part of the puzzle
before she finished hers. Or they would help with my homework; that was a
mess. About all natural things Dolly was sophisticated; she had the
subterranean intelligence of a bee that knows where to find the sweetest
flower: she could tell you of a storm a day in advance, predict the fruit of
the fig tree, lead you to mushrooms and wild honey, a hidden nest of guinea
hen eggs. She looked around her, and felt what she saw. But about homework
Dolly was as ignorant as Catherine. "America must have been called America
before Columbus came. It stands to reason. Otherwise, how would he have
known it was America?" And Catherine said: "That's correct. America is an
old Indian word." Of the two, Catherine was the worst: she insisted on her
infallibility, and if you did not write down exactly what she said, she got
jumpy and spilled the coffee or something. But I never listened to her again
after what she said about Lincoln: that he was part Negro and part Indian
and only a speck white. Even I knew this was not true. But I am under
special obligation to Catherine; if it had not been for her who knows
whether I would have grown to ordinary human size? At fourteen I was not
much bigger than Biddy Skinner, and people told how he'd had offers from a
circus. Catherine said don't worry yourself honey, all you need is a little
stretching. She pulled at my arms, legs, tugged at my head as though it were
an apple latched to an unyielding bough. But it's the truth that within two
years she'd stretched me from four feet nine to five feet seven, and I can
prove it by the breadknife knotches on the pantry door, for even now when so
much has gone, when there is only wind in the stove and winter in the
kitchen, those growing-up scars are still there, a testimony.
Despite the generally beneficial effect Dolly's medicine appeared to
have on those who sent for it, letters once in a while came saying Dear Miss
Talbo we won't be needing any more dropsy cure on account of poor Cousin
Belle (or whoever) passed away last week bless her soul. Then the kitchen
was a mournful place; with folded hands and nodding heads my two friends
bleakly recalled the circumstances of the case, and well, Catherine would
say, we did the best we could Dollyheart, but the good Lord had other
notions. Verena, too, could make the kitchen sad, as she was always
introducing a new rule or enforcing an old one: do, don't, stop, start: it
was as though we were clocks she kept an eye on to see that our time jibed
with her own, and woe if we were ten minutes fast, an hour slow: Verena went
off like a cuckoo. That One! said Catherine, and Dolly would go hush now!
hush now! as though to quiet not Catherine but a mutinous inner whispering.
Verena in her heart wanted, I think, to come into the kitchen and be a part
of it; but she was too like a lone man in a house full of women and
children, and the only way she could make contact with us was through
assertive outbursts: Dolly, get rid of that kitten, you want to aggravate my
asthma? who left the water running in the bathroom? which one of you broke
my umbrella? Her ugly moods sifted through the house like a sour yellow mist
That One. Hush now, hush.
Once a week, Saturdays mostly, we went to River Woods. For these trips,
which lasted the whole day, Catherine fried a chicken and deviled a dozen
eggs, and Dolly took along a chocolate layer cake and a supply of divinity
fudge. Thus armed, and carrying three empty grain sacks, we walked out the
church road past the cemetery and through the field of Indian grass. Just
entering the woods there was a double-trunked China tree, really two trees,
but their branches were so embraced that you could step from one into the
other; in fact, they were bridged by a tree-house: spacious, sturdy, a model
of a tree-house, it was like a raft floating in the sea of leaves. The boys
who built it, provided they are still alive, must by now be very old men;
certainly the tree-house was fifteen or twenty years old when Dolly first
found it and that was a quarter of a century before she showed it to me. To
reach it was easy as climbing stairs; there were footholds of gnarled bark
and tough vines to grip; even Catherine, who was heavy around the hips and
complained of rheumatism, had no trouble. But Catherine felt no love for the
tree-house; she did not know, as Dolly knew and made me know, that it was a
ship, that to sit up there was to sail along the cloudy coastline of every
dream. Mark my word, said Catherine, them boards are too old, them nails are
slippery as worms, gonna crack in two, gonna fall and bust our heads don't I
know it.
Storing our provisions in the tree-house, we separated into the woods,
each carrying a grain sack to be filled with herbs, leaves, strange roots.
No one, not even Catherine, knew altogether what went into the medicine, for
it was a secret Dolly kept to herself, and we were never allowed to look at
the gatherings in her own sack: she held tight to it, as though inside she
had captive a blue-haired child, a bewitched prince. This was her story:
"Once, back yonder when we were children (Verena still with her babyteeth
and Catherine no higher than a fence post) there were gipsies thick as birds
in a blackberry patch-not like now, when maybe you see a few straggling
through each year. They came with spring: sudden, like the dogwood pink,
there they were-up and down the road and in the woods around. But our men
hated the sight of them, and daddy, that was your great-uncle Uriah, said he
would shoot any he caught on our place. And so I never told when I saw (he
gipsies taking water from the creek or stealing old winter pecans off the
ground. Then one evening, it was April and falling rain, I went out to the
cowshed where Fairybell had a new little calf; and there in the cowshed were
three gipsy women, two of them old and one of them young, and the young one
was lying naked and twisting on the cornshucks. When they saw that I was not
afraid, that I was not going to run and tell, one of the old women asked
would I bring a light So I went to the house for a candle, and when I came
back the woman who had sent me was holding a red hollering baby upside down
by its feet, and the other woman was milking Fairybell. I helped them wash
the baby in the warm milk and wrap it in a scarf. Then one of the old women
took my hand and said: Now I am going to give you a gift by teaching you a
rhyme. It was a rhyme about evergreen bark, dragonfly fern-and all the other
things we come here in the woods to find: Boil till dark and pure if you
want a dropsy cure. In the morning they were gone; I looked for them in the
fields and on the road; there was nothing left of them but the rhyme in my
head."
Calling to each other, hooting like owls loose in the daytime, we
worked all morning in opposite parts of the woods. Towards afternoon, our
sacks fat with skinned bark, tender, torn roots, we climbed back into the
green web of the China tree and spread the food. There was good creek water
in a mason jar, or if the weather was cold a thermos of hot coffee, and we
wadded leaves to wipe our chicken-stained, fudge-sticky fingers. Afterwards,
telling fortunes with flowers, speaking of sleepy things, it was as though
we floated through the afternoon on the raft in the tree; we belonged there,
as the sun-silvered leaves belonged, the dwelling whippoorwills.
About once a year I go over to the house on Talbo Lane, and walk around
in the yard. I was there the other day, and came across an old iron tub
lying overturned in the weeds like a black fallen meteor: Dolly-Dolly,
hovering over the tub dropping our grain-sack gatherings into boiling water
and stirring, stirring with a sawed-off broomstick the brown as tobacco spit
brew. She did the mixing of the medicine alone while Catherine and I stood
watching like apprentices to a witch. We all helped later with the bottling
of it and, because it produced a fume that exploded ordinary corks, my
particular job was to roll stoppers of toilet paper. Sales averaged around
six bottles a week, at two dollars a bottle. The money. Dolly said, belonged
to the three of us, and we spent it fast as it came in. We were always
sending away for stuff advertised in magazines: Take Up Woodcarving,
Parcheesi: the game for young and old. Anyone Can Play A Bazooka. Once we
sent away for a book of French lessons: it was my idea that if we got to
talk French we would have a secret language that Verena or nobody would
understand. Dolly was willing to try, but "Passez-moi a spoon" was the best
she ever did, and after learning "Je suis fatigue," Catherine never opened
the book again: she said that was all she needed to know.
Verena often remarked that there would be trouble if anyone ever got
poisoned, but otherwise she did not show much interest in the dropsy cure.
Then one year we totaled up and found we'd earned enough to have to pay an
income tax. Whereupon Verena began asking questions: money was like a
wildcat whose trail she stalked with a trained hunter's muffled step and an
eye for every broken twig. What, she wanted to know, went into the medicine?
and Dolly, flattered, almost giggling, nonetheless waved her hands and said
Well this and that, nothing special.
Verena seemed to let the matter die; yet very often, sitting at the
supper table, her eyes paused ponderingly on Dolly, and once, when we were
gathered in the yard around the boiling tub, I looked up and saw Verena in a
window watching us with uninterrupted fixity: by then, I suppose, her plan
had taken shape, but she did not make her first move until summer.
Twice a year, in January and again in August, Verena went on buying
trips to St. Louis or Chicago. That summer, the summer I reached sixteen,
she went to Chicago and after two weeks returned accompanied by a man called
Dr. Morris Ritz. Naturally everyone wondered who was Dr. Morris Ritz? He
wore bow ties and sharp jazzy suits; his lips were blue and he had gaudy
small swerving eyes; altogether, he looked like a mean mouse. We heard that
he lived in the best room at the Lola Hotel and ate steak dinners at Phil's
Cafe. On the streets he strutted along bobbing his shiny head at every
passerby; he made no friends, however, and was not seen in the company of
anyone except Verena, who never brought him to the house and never mentioned
his name until one day Catherine had the gall to say, "Miss Verena, just who
is this funny looking little Dr. Morris Ritz?" and Verena, getting white
around the mouth, replied: "Well now, he's not half so funny looking as some
I could name."
Scandalous, people said, the way Verena was carrying on with that
little Jew from Chicago: and him twenty years younger. The story that got
around was that they were up to something out in the old canning factory the
other side of town. As it developed, they were; but not what the gang at the
pool-hall thought Most any afternoon you could see Verena and Dr. Morris
Ritz walking out toward the canning factory, an abandoned blasted brick ruin
with jagged windows and sagging doors. For a generation no one had been near
it except school-kids who went there to smoke cigarettes and get naked
together. Then early in September, by way of a notice in the Courier, we
learned for the first time that Verena had bought the old canning factory;
but there was no mention as to what use she was planning to make of it.
Shortly after this, Verena told Catherine to kill two chickens as Dr. Morris
Ritz was coming to Sunday dinner.
During the years that I lived there. Dr. Morris Ritz was the only
person ever invited to dine at the house on Talbo Lane. So for many reasons
it was an occasion. Catherine and Dolly did a spring cleaning: they beat
rugs, brought china from the attic, had every room smelling of floorwax and
lemon polish. There was to be fried chicken and ham, English peas, sweet
potatoes, rolls, banana pudding, two kinds of cake and tutti-frutti ice
cream from the drugstore. Sunday noon Verena came in to look at the table:
with its sprawling centerpiece of peach-colored roses and dense fancy
stretches of silverware, it seemed set for a party of twenty; actually,
there were only two places. Verena went ahead and set two more, and Dolly,
seeing this, said weakly Well, it was all right if Collin wanted to eat at
the table, but that she was going to stay in the kitchen with Catherine.
Verena put her foot down: "Don't fool with me. Dolly. This is important.
Morris is coming here expressly to meet you. And what-is more, I'd
appreciate it if you'd hold up your head: it makes me dizzy, hanging like
that."
Dolly was scared to death: she hid in her room, and long after our
guest had arrived I had to be sent to fetch her. She was lying in the pink
bed with a wet washrag on her forehead, and Catherine was sitting beside
her. Catherine was all sleeked up, rouge on her cheeks like lollipops and
her jaws Jammed with more cotton than ever; she said, "Honey, you ought to
get up from there-you're going to ruin that pretty dress." It was a calico
dress Verena had brought from Chicago; Dolly sat up and smoothed it, then
immediately lay down again: "If Verena knew how sorry I am," she said
helplessly, and so I went and told Verena that Dolly was sick. Verena said
she'd see about that, and marched off leaving me alone in the hall with Dr.
Morris Ritz.
Oh he was a hateful thing. "So you're sixteen," he said, winking first
one, then the other of his sassy eyes. "And throwing it around, huh? Make
the old lady take you next time she goes to Chicago. Plenty of good stuff
there to throw it at." He snapped his fingers and jiggled his razde-dazzle,
dagger-sharp shoes as though keeping time to some vaudeville tune: he might
have been a tapdancer or a soda-jerk, except that he was carrying a brief
case, which suggested a more serious occupation. I wondered what kind of
doctor he was supposed to be; indeed, was on the point of asking when Verena
returned steering Dolly by the elbow.
The shadows of the hall, the tapestried furniture failed to absorb her;
without raising her eyes she lifted her hand, and Dr. Ritz gripped it so
ruggedly, pumped it so hard she went nearly off balance. "Gee, Miss Talbo;
am I honored to meet you!" he said, and cranked his bow tie.
We sat down to dinner, and Catherine came around with the chicken. She
served Verena, then Dolly, and when the doctor's turn came he said, 'Tell
you the truth, the only piece of chicken I care about is the brain: don't
suppose you'd have that back in the kitchen, mammy?"
Catherine looked so far down her nose she got almost cross" eyed; and
with her tongue all mixed up in the cotton wadding she told him that,
"Dolly's took those brains on her plate."
"These southern accents, Jesus," he said, genuinely dismayed.
"She says I have the brains on my plate," said Dolly, her cheeks red as
Catherine's rouge. "But please let me pass them to you."
"If you're sure you don't mind..."
"She doesn't mind a bit," said Verena. "She only eats sweet things
anyway. Here, Dolly: have some banana pudding."
Presently Dr. Ritz commenced a fit of sneezing. "The flowers, those
roses, old allergy..."
"Oh dear," said Dolly who, seeing an opportunity to escape into the
kitchen, seized the bowl of roses: it slipped, crystal crashed, roses landed
in gravy and gravy landed on us all. "You see," she said, speaking to
herself and with tears teetering in her eyes, "you see, it's hopeless."
"Nothing is hopeless. Dolly; sit down and finish your pudding," Verena
advised in a substantial, chin-up voice. "Besides, we have a nice little
surprise for you. Morris, show Dolly those lovely labels."
Murmuring "No harm done," Dr. Ritz stopped rubbing gravy splotches off
his sleeve, and went into the hall, returning with his brief case. His
fingers buzzed through a sheaf of papers, then lighted on a large envelope
which he passed down to Dolly.
There were gum-stickers in the envelope, triangular labels with orange
lettering: Gipsy Queen Dropsy Cure: and a fuzzy picture of a woman wearing a
bandana and gold earloops. "First class, huh?" said Dr. Ritz. "Made in
Chicago. A friend of mine drew the picture: real artist, that guy," Dolly
shuffled the labels with a puzzled, apprehensive expression until Verena
asked: "Aren't you pleased?"
The labels twitched in Dolly's hands. "I'm not sure I understand."
"Of course you do," said Verena, smiling thinly. "It's obvious enough.
I told Morris that old story of yours and he thought of this wonderful
name."
"Gipsy Queen Dropsy Cure: very catchy, that," said the doctor. "Look
great in ads."
"My medicine?" said Dolly, her eyes still lowered. "But I don't need
any labels, Verena. I write my own."
Dr. Ritz snapped his fingers. "Say, that's good! We can have labels
printed like her own handwriting: personal, see?"
"We've spent enough money already," Verena told him briskly; and,
turning to Dolly, said: "Morris and I are going up to Washington this week
to get a copyright on these labels and register a patent for the
medicine-naming you as the inventor, naturally. Now the point is. Dolly, you
must sit down and write out a complete formula for us."
Dolly's face loosened; and the labels scattered on the floor, skimmed.
Leaning her hands on the table she pushed herself upward; slowly her
features came together again, she lifted her head and looked blinkingly at
Dr. Ritz, at Verena. "It won't do," she said quietly. She moved to the door,
put a hand on its handle. "It won't do: because you haven't any right,
Verena. Nor you, sir."
I helped Catherine clear the table: the ruined roses, the uncut cakes,
the vegetables no one had touched. Verena and her guest had left the house
together; from the kitchen window we watched them as they went toward town
nodding and shaking their heads. Then we sliced the devil's-food cake and
took it into Dolly's room.
Hush now! hush now! she said when Catherine began light' ing into That
One. But it was as though the rebellious inner whispering had become a
raucous voice, an opponent she must outshout: Hush now! hush nowl until
Catherine had to put her arms around Dolly and say hush, too.
We got out a deck of Rook cards and spread them on the bed. Naturally
Catherine had to go and remember it was Sunday; she said maybe we could risk
another black mark in the Judgment Book, but there were too many beside her
name already. After thinking it over, we told fortunes instead. Sometime
around dusk Verena came home. We heard her footsteps in the hall; she opened
the door without knocking, and Dolly, who was in the middle of my fortune,
tightened her hold on my hand. Verena said: "Collin, Catherine, we will
excuse you."
Catherine wanted to follow me up the ladder into the attic, except she
had on her fine clothes. So I went alone. There was a good knothole that
looked straight down into the pink room; but Verena was standing directly
under it, and all I could see was her hat, for she was still wearing the hat
she'd put on when she left the house. It was a straw skimmer decorated with
a cluster of celluloid fruit. "Those are facts," she was saying, and the
fruit shivered, shimmered in the blue dimness. "Two thousand for the old
factory. Bill Tatum and four carpenters working out there at eighty cents an
hour, seven thousand dollars worth of machinery already ordered, not to
mention what a specialist like Morris Ritz is costing. And why? All for
youl"
"All for me?" and Dolly sounded sad and failing as the dusk. I saw her
shadow as she moved from one part of the room to another. "You are my own
flesh, and I love you tenderly; in my heart I love you. I could prove it now
by giving you the only thing that has ever been mine: then you would have it
all. Please, Verena," she said, faltering, "let this one thing belong to
me."
Verena switched on a light. "You speak of giving," and her voice was
hard as the sudden bitter glare. "All these years that I've worked like a
fieldhand; what haven't I given you? This house, that..."
"You've given everything to me," Dolly interrupted softly. "And to
Catherine and to Collin. Except, we've earned our way a bit: we've kept a
nice home for you, haven't we?"
"Oh a fine home," said Verena, whipping off her hat Her face was full
of blood. "You and that gurgling fool. Has it not struck you that I never
ask anyone into this house? And for a very simple reason: I'm ashamed to.
Look what happened today."
I could hear the breath go out of Dolly. "I'm sorry," she said faintly.
"I am truly. I'd always thought there was a place for us here, that you
needed us somehow. But it's going to be all right now, Verena. We'll go
away."
Verena sighed. "Poor Dolly. Poor poor thing. Wherever would you go?"
The answer, a little while in coming, was fragile as the flight of a
moth; "I know a place."
Later, I waited in bed for Dolly to come and kiss me goodnight. My
room, beyond the parlor in a faraway comer of the house, was the room where
their father, Mr. Uriah Talbo, had lived. In his mad old age, Verena had
brought him here from the farm, and here he'd died, not knowing where he
was. Though dead ten, fifteen years, the pee and tobacco old-man smell of
him still saturated the mattress, the closet, and on a shelf in the closet
was the one possession he'd carried away with him from the farm, a small
yellow drum: as a lad my own age he'd marched in a Dixie regiment rattling
this little yellow drum, and singing. Dolly said that when she was a girl
she'd liked to wake up winter mornings and hear her father singing as he
went about the house building fires; after he was old, after he'd died, she
sometimes heard his songs in the field of Indian grass. Wind, Catherine
said; and Dolly told her: But the wind is us-it gathers and remembers all
our voices, then sends them talking and telling through the leaves and the
fields -I've heard Papa clear as day.
On such a night, now that it was September, the autumn winds would be
curving through the taut red grass, releasing all the gone voices, and I
wondered if he was singing among them, the old man in whose bed I lay
falling asleep.
Then I thought Dolly at last had come to kiss me goodnight, for I woke
up sensing her near me in the room; but it was almost morning, beginning
light was like a flowering foliage at the windows, and roosters ranted in
distant yards. "Shhh, Collin," Dolly whispered, bending over me. She was
wearing a woolen winter suit and a hat with a traveling veil that misted her
face. "I only wanted you to know where we are going."
"To the tree-house?" I said, and thought I was talking in my sleep.
Dolly nodded. "Just for now. Until we know better what our plans will
be." She could see that I was frightened, and put her hand on my forehead.
"You and Catherine: but not me?" and I was jerking with a chill. "You
can't leave without me."
The town clock was tolling; she seemed to be waiting for it to finish
before making up her mind. It struck five, and by the time the note had died
away I had climbed out of bed and rushed into my clothes. There was nothing
for Dolly to say except: '"Don't forget your comb."
Catherine met us in the yard; she was crooked over with the weight of a
brimming oilcloth satchel; her eyes were swollen, she had been crying, and
Dolly, oddly calm and certain of what she was doing, said it doesn't matter,
Catherine-we can send for your goldfish once we find a place. Verena's
closed quiet windows loomed above us; we moved cautiously past them and
silently out the gate. A fox terrier barked at us; but there was no one on
the street, and no one saw us pass through the town except a sleepless
prisoner gazing from the jail. We reached the field of Indian grass at the
same moment as the sun. Dolly's veil flared in the morning breeze, and a
pair of pheasants, nesting in our path, swept before us, their metal wings
swiping the cockscomb-scarlet grass. The China tree was a September bowl of
green and greenish gold: Gonna fall, gonna bust our heads, Catherine said,
as all around us the leaves shook down their dew.
If it hadn't been for Riley Henderson, I doubt anyone would have known,
or at least known so soon, that we were in the tree.
Catherine had loaded her oilcloth satchel with the leftovers from
Sunday dinner, and we were enjoying a breakfast of cake and chicken when
gunfire slapped through the woods. We sat there with cake going dry in our
mouths. Below, a sleek bird dog cantered into view, followed by Riley
Henderson; he was shouldering a shotgun and around his neck there hung a
garland of bleeding squirrels whose tails were tied together. Dolly lowered
her veil, as though to camouflage herself among the leaves.
He paused not far away, and his wary, tanned young face tightened;
propping his gun into position he took a roaming aim, as if waiting for a
target to present itself. The suspense was too much for Catherine, who
shouted: "Riley Henderson, don't you dare shoot us!"
His gun wavered, and he spun around, the squirrels swinging like a
loose necklace. Then he saw us in the tree, and after a moment said, "Hello
there, Catherine Creek; hello. Miss Talbo. What are you folks doing up
there? Wildcat chase you?"
"Just sitting," said Dolly promptly, as though she were afraid for
either Catherine or I to answer. "That's a fine mess of squirrels you've
got."
'Take a couple," he said, detaching two. "We had some for supper last
night and they were real tender. Wait a minute, I'll bring them up to you."
"You don't have to do that; just leave them on the ground." But he said
ants would get at them, and hauled himself into the-tree. His blue shirt was
spotted with squirrel blood, and flecks of blood glittered in his rough
leather-colored hair; he smelted of gunpowder, and his homely well-made face
was brown as cinnamon. "I'll be damned, it's a tree-house," he said,
pounding his foot as though to test the strength of the boards. Catherine
warned him that maybe it was a tree-house now, but it wouldn't be for long
if he didn't stop that stamping. He said, "You build it, Collin?" and it was
with a happy shock that I realized he'd called my name: I hadn't thought
Riley Henderson knew me from dust. But I knew him, all right."
No one in our town ever had themselves so much talked about as Riley
Henderson. Older people spoke of him with sighing voices, and those nearer
his own age, like myself, were glad to call him mean and hard: that was
because he would only let us envy him, would not let us love him, be his
friend.
Anyone could have told you the facts.
He was bom in China, where his father, a missionary, had been killed in
an uprising. His mother was from this town, and her name was Rose; though I
never saw her myself, people say she was a beautiful woman until she started
wearing glasses; she was rich too, having received a large inheritance from
her grandfather. When she came back from China she brought Riley, then five,
and two younger children, both girls; they lived with her unmarried brother.
Justice of the Peace Horace Holton, a meaty spinsterish man with skin yellow
as quince. In the following years Rose Henderson grew strange in her ways:
she threatened to sue Verena for selling her a dress that shrank in the
wash; to punish Riley, she made him hop on one leg around the yard reciting
the multiplication table; otherwise, she let him run wild, and when the
Presbyterian minister spoke to her about it she told him she hated her
children and wished they were dead. And she must have meant it, for one
Christmas morning she locked the bathroom door and tried to drown her two
little girls in the tub: it was said that Riley broke the door down with a
hatchet, which seems a tall order for a boy of nine or ten, whatever he was.
Afterwards, Rose was sent off to a place on the Gulf Coast, an institution,
and she may still be living there, at least I've never heard that she died.
Now Riley and his uncle Horace Holton couldn't get on. One night he stole
Horace's Oldsmobile and drove out to the Dance-N-Dine with Mamie Curtiss:
she was fast as lightning, and maybe five years older than Riley, who was
not more than fifteen at the time. Well, Horace heard they were at the
Dance-N-Dine and got the Sheriff to drive him out there: he said he was
going to teach Riley a lesson and have him arrested. But Riley said Sheriff,
you're after the wrong party. Right there in front of a crowd he accused his
uncle of stealing money that belonged to Rose and that was meant for him and
his sisters. He offered to fight it out on the spot; and when Horace held
back, he just walked over and socked him in the eye. The Sheriff put Riley
in jail. But Judge Cool, an old friend of Rose's, began to investigate, and
sure enough it turned out Horace had been draining Rose's money into his own
account. So Horace simply packed his things and took the train to New
Orleans where, a few months, later, we heard that, billed as the Minister of
Romance, he had a job marrying couples on an excursion steamer that made
moonlight cruises up the Mississippi. From then on, Riley was his own boss.
With money borrowed against the inheritance he was coming into, he bought a
red racy car and went skidding round the countryside with every floozy in
town; the only nice girls you ever saw in that car were his sisters-he took
them for a drive Sunday afternoons, a slow respectable circling of the
square. They were pretty girls, his sisters, but they didn't have much fun,
for he kept a strict watch, and boys were afraid to come near them. A
reliable colored woman did their housework, otherwise they lived alone. One
of his sisters, Elizabeth, was in my class at school, and she got the best
grades, straight A's. Riley himself had quit school; but he was not one of
the pool-hall loafs, nor did he mix with them; he fished in the daytime, or
went hunting; around the old Holton house he made many improvements, as he
was a good carpenter; and a good mechanic, too: for instance, he built a
special car hom, it wailed like a train-whistle, and in the evening you
could hear it howling as he roared down the road on his way to a dance in
another town. How I longed for him to be my friendl and it seemed possible,
he was just two years older. But I could remember the only time he ever
spoke to me. Spruce in a pair of white flannels, he was off to a dance at
the clubhouse, and he came into Verena's drugstore, where I sometimes helped
out on Saturday nights. What he wanted was a package of Shadows, but I
wasn't sure what Shadows were, so he had to come behind the counter and get
them out of the drawer himself; and he laughed, not unkindly, though it was
worse than if it had been: now he knew I was a fool, we would never be
friends.
Dolly said, "Have a piece of cake, Riley," and he asked did we always
have picnics this early in the day? then went on to say he considered it a
fine idea: "Like swimming at night," he said. "I come down here while it's
still dark, and go swimming in the river. Next time you have a picnic, call
out so I'll know you're here."
"You are welcome any morning," said Dolly, raising her veil. "I daresay
we will be here for some while."
Riley must have thought it a curious invitation, but he did not say so.
He produced a package of cigarettes and passed it around; when Catherine
took one. Dolly said: "Catherine Creek, you've never touched tobacco in your
life." Catherine allowed as to how she may have been missing something: "It
must be a comfort, so many folks speak in its favor; and Dolly-heart, when
you get to be our age you've got to look for comforts." Dolly bit her lip;
"Well, I don't suppose there's any harm," she said, and accepted a cigarette
herself.
There are two things that will drive a boy crazy (according to Mr.
Hand, who caught me smoking in the lavatory at school) and I'd given up one
of them, cigarettes, two years before: not because I thought it would make
me crazy, but because I thought it was imperiling my growth. Actually, now
that I was a normal size, Riley was no taller than me, though he seemed to
be, for he moved with the drawn-out cowboy awkwardness of a lanky man. So I
took a cigarette, and Dolly, gushing un-inhaled smoke, said she thought we
might as well all be sick together; but no one was sick, and Catherine said
next time she would like to try a pipe, as they smelled so good. Whereupon
Dolly volunteered the surprising fact that Verena smoked a pipe, something
I'd never known: "I don't know whether she does any more, but she used to
have a pipe and a can of Prince Albert with half an apple cut up in it. But
you musnt tell that," she added, suddenly aware of Riley, who laughed aloud.
Usually, glimpsed on the street or seen passing in his car, Riley wore
a tense, trigger-tempered expression; but there in the China tree he seemed
relaxed: frequent smiles enriched his whole face, as though he wanted at
least to be friendly, if not friends. Dolly, for her part, appeared to be at
ease and enjoying his company. Certainly she was not afraid of him: perhaps
it was because we were in the tree-house, and the tree-house was her own.
"Thank you for the squirrels, sir," she said, as he prepared to leave.
"And don't forget to come again."
He swung himself to the ground. "Want a ride? My car's up by the
cemetery."
Dolly told him: "That's kind of you; but really we haven't any place to
go."
Grinning, he lifted his gun and aimed it at us; and Catherine yelled:
You ought to be whipped, boy; but he laughed and waved and ran, his bird dog
barking, booming ahead. Dolly said gaily, "Let's have a cigarette," for the
package had been left behind.
By the time Riley reached town the news was roaring in the air like a
flight of bees: how we'd run off in the middle of the night. Though neither
Catherine nor I knew it, Dolly had left a note, which Verena found when she
went for her morning coffee. As I understand it, this note simply said that
we were going away and that Verena would not be bothered by us any more. She
at once rang up her friend Morris Ritz at the Lola Hotel, and together they
traipsed off to rouse the sheriff. It was Verena's backing that had put the
sheriff into office; he was a fast-stepping, brassy young fellow with a
brutal jaw and the bashful eyes of a cardsharp; his name was Junius Candle
(can you believe it? the same Junius Candle who is a Senator today!). A
searching party of deputies was gathered; telegrams were hurried off to
sheriffs in other towns. Many years later, when the Talbo estate was being
settled, I came across the handwritten original of this telegram-composed, I
believe, by Dr. Ritz. Be on lookout for following persons traveling
together. Dolly Augusta Talbo, white, aged 60, yellow grayish hair, thin,
height 5 feet 3, green eyes, probably insane but not Ukely to be dangerous,
post description bakeries as she is cake eater. Catherine Creek, Negro,
pretends to be Indian, age about 60, toothless, confused speech, short and
heavy, strong, likely to be dangerous. Collin Talbo Fenwick, white, age 16,
looks younger, height 5 feet 7, blond, gray eyes. thin, bad posture, scar at
comer of mouth, surly natured. All three wanted as runaways. They sure
haven't run far, Riley said in the post office; and postmistress Mrs. Peters
rushed to the telephone to say Riley Henderson had seen us in the woods
below the cemetery.
While this was happening we were peaceably setting about to make the
tree-house cozy. From Catherine's satchel we took a rose and gold
scrapquilt, and there was a deck of Rook cards, soap, rolls of toilet paper,
oranges and lemons, candles, a frying pan, a bottle of blackberry wine, and
two shoeboxes filled with food: Catherine bragged that she'd robbed the
pantry of everything, leaving not even a biscuit for That One's breakfast.
Later, we all went to the creek and bathed our feet and faces in the
cold water. There are as many creeks in River Woods as there are veins in a
leaf: clear, crackling, they crook their way down into the little river that
crawls through the woods like a green alligator. Dolly looked a sight,
standing in the water with her winter suit-skirt hiked up and her veil
pestering her like a cloud of gnats. I asked her. Dolly, why are you wearing
that veil? and she said, "But isn't it proper for ladies to wear veils when
they go traveling?"
Returning to the tree, we made a delicious jar of orangeade and talked
of the future. Our assets were: forty-seven dollars in cash, and several
pieces of jewelry, notably a gold fraternity ring Catherine had found in the
intestines of a hog while stuffing sausages. According to Catherine,
forty-seven dollars would buy us bus tickets anywhere: she knew somebody who
had gone all the way to Mexico for fifteen dollars. Both Dolly and I were
opposed to Mexico: for one thing, we didnt know the language. Besides, Dolly
said, we shouldn't venture outside the state, and wherever we went it ought
to be near a forest, otherwise how would we be able to make the dropsy cure?
"To tell you the truth, I think we should set up right here in River Woods,"
she said, gazing about speculatively.
"In this old tree?" said Catherine. "Just put that notion out of your
head, Dollyheart." And then: "You recall how we saw in the paper where a man
bought a castle across the ocean and brought it every bit home with him? You
recall that? Well, we maybe could put my little house on a wagon and haul it
down here." But, as Dolly pointed out, the house belonged to Verena, and was
therefore not ours to haul away. Catherine answered: "You wrong, sugar. If
you feed a man, and wash his clothes, and born his children, you and that
man are married, that man is yours. If you sweep a house, and tend its fires
and fill its stove, and there is love in you all the years you are doing
this, then you and that house are married, that house is yours. The way I
see it, both those houses up there belong to us: in the eyes of God, we
could put That One right out"
I had an idea: down on the river below us there was a forsaken
houseboat, green with the rust of water, half-sunk; it had been the property
of an old man who made his living catching catfish, and who had been run out
of town after applying for a certificate to marry a fifteen-year-old colored
girl. My idea was, why shouldn't we fix up the old houseboat and live there?
Catherine said that if possible she hoped to spend the rest of her life
on land: "Where the Lord intended us," and she listed more of His
intentions, one of these being that trees were meant for monkeys and birds.
Presently she went silent and, nudging us, pointed in amazement down to
where the woods opened upon the field of grass.
There, stalking toward us, solemnly, stiffly, came a distinguished
party: Judge Cool, the Reverend and Mrs. Buster, Mrs. Macy Wheeler; and
leading them, Sheriff Junius Candle, who wore high-laced boots and had a
pistol flapping on his hip. Sunmotes lilted around them like yellow
butterflies, brambles brushed their starched town clothes, and Mrs. Macy
Wheeler, frightened by a vine that switched against her leg, jumped back,
screeching: I laughed.
And, hearing me, they looked up at us, an expression of perplexed
horror collecting on some of their faces: it was as though they were
visitors at a zoo who had wandered accidentally into one of the cages.
Sheriff Candle slouched forward, his hand cocked on his pistol. He stared at
us with puckered eyes, as if he were gazing straight into the sun. "Now look
here..." he began, and was cut short by Mrs. Buster, who said: "Sheriff, we
agreed to leave this to the Reverend." It was a rule of hers that her
husband, as God's representative, should have first say in everything. The
Reverend Buster cleared his throat, and his hands, as he rubbed them
together, were like the dry scraping feelers of an insect. "Dolly Talbo," he
said, his voice very fine-sounding for so stringy, stunted a man, "I speak
to you on behalf of your sister, that good grar cious woman..."
"That she is," sang his wife, and Mrs. Macy Wheeler parroted her.
"...who has this day received a grievous shock."
That she has," echoed the ladies in their choir-trained voices.
Dolly looked at Catherine, touched my hand, as though asking us to
explain what was meant by the group glowering below like dogs gathered
around a tree of trapped possums. Inadvertently, and just, I think to have
something in her hands, she picked up one of the cigarettes Riley had left.
"Shame on you," squalled Mrs. Buster, tossing her tiny bald-ish head:
those who called her an old buzzard, and there were several, were not
speaking of her character alone: in addition to a small vicious head, she
had high hunched shoulders and a vast body. "I say shame on you. How can you
have come so far from God as to sit up in a tree like a drunken
Indian-sucking cigarettes like a common..."
"Floozy," supplied Mrs. Macy Wheeler.
"...floozy, while your sister lies in misery flat on her back."
Maybe they were right in describing Catherine as dangerous, for she
reared up and said: "Preacher lady, don't you go calling Dolly and us
floozies; 111 come down there and slap you bowlegged." Fortunately, none of
them could understand her; if they had, the sheriff might have shot her
through the head: no exaggeration; and many of the white people in town
would have said he did right
Dolly seemed stunned, at the same time self-possessed. You see, she
simply dusted her skirt and said: "Consider a moment, Mrs. Buster, and you
will realize that we are nearer God than you-by several yards."
"Good for you. Miss Dolly. I call that a good answer." The man who had
spoken was Judge Cool; he clapped his hands together and chuckled
appreciatively. "Of course they are nearer God," he said, unfazed by the
disapproving, sober faces around him. "They're in a tree, and we're on the
ground."
Mrs. Buster whirled on him. "I'd thought you were a Christian, Charlie
Cool. My ideas of a Christian do not include laughing at and encouraging a
poor mad woman."
"Mind who you name as mad, Thelma," said the Judge. "That isn't
especially Christian either."
The Reverend Buster opened fire. "Answer me this. Judge. Why did you
come with us if it wasn't to do the Lord's will in a spirit of mercy?"
"The Lord's will?" said the Judge incredulously. "You dont know what
that is any more than I do. Perhaps the Lord told these people to go live in
a tree; you'll admit, at least, that He never told you to drag them
out-unless, of course, Verena Talbo is the Lord, a theory several of you
give credence to, eh Sheriff? No, sir, I did not come along to do anyone's
will but my own: which merely means that I felt like taking a walk - the
woods are very handsome at this time of year." He picked some brown violets
and put them in his buttonhole.
ХTo hell with all that," began the Sheriff, and was again interrupted
by Mrs. Buster, who said that under no circumstances would she tolerate
swearing: Will we. Reverend? and the Reverend, backing her up, said he'd be
damned if they would. "I'm in charge here," the Sheriff informed them,
thrusting his bully-boy jaw. "This is a matter for the law."
"Whose law, Junius?" inquired Judge Cool quietly. "Remember that I sat
in the courthouse twenty-seven years, rather a longer time than you've
lived. Take care. We have no legal right whatever to interfere with Miss
Dolly."
Undaunted, the Sheriff hoisted himself a little into the tree. "Let's
don't have any more trouble," he said coaxingly, and we could see his curved
dog-teeth. "Come on down from there, the pack of you." As we continued to
sit like three nesting birds he showed more of his teeth and, as though he
were trying to shake us out, angrily swayed a branch.
"Miss Dolly, you've always been a peaceful person," said Mrs. Macy
Wheeler. "Please come on home with us; you don't want to miss your dinner."
Dolly replied matter-of-faetly that we were not hungry: were they? "There's
a drumstick for anybody that would like it."
Sheriff Candle said, "You make it hard on me, ma'am," and pulled
himself nearer. A branch, cracking under his weight, sent through the tree a
sad cruel thunder.
"If he lays a hand on any one of you, kick him in the head," advised
Judge Cool. "Or I will," he said with sudden gallant pugnacity: like an
inspired frog he hopped and caught hold to one of the Sheriff's dangling
boots. The Sheriff, in turn, grabbed my ankles, and Catherine had to hold me
around the middle. We were sliding, that we should all fall seemed
inevitable, the strain was immense. Meanwhile, Dolly started pouring what
was left of our orangeade down the Sheriff's neck, and abruptly, shouting an
obscenity, he let go of me. They crashed to the ground, the Sheriff on top
of the Judge and the Reverend Buster crushed beneath them both. Mrs. Macy
Wheeler and Mrs. Buster, augmenting the disaster, fell upon them with
crow-like cries of distress.
Appalled by what had happened, and the part she herself had played.
Dolly became so confused that she dropped the empty orangeade jar: it hit
Mrs. Buster on the head with a ripe thud. "Beg pardon," she apologized,
though in the furor no one heard her.
When the tangle below unraveled, those concerned stood apart from each
other embarrassedly, gingerly feeling of themselves. The Reverend looked
rather flattened out, but no broken bones were discovered, and only Mrs.
Buster, on whose skimpy-haired head a bump was pyramiding, could have justly
complained of injury. She did so forthrightly. "You attacked me. Dolly
Talbo, don't deny it, everyone here is a witness, everyone saw you aim that
mason jar at my head. Junius, arrest heri"
The Sheriff, however, was involved in settling differences of his own.
Hands on hips, swaggering, he bore down on the Judge, who was in the process
of replacing the violets in his buttonhole. "If you weren't so old, I'd damn
well knock you down."
"I'm not so old, Junius: just old enough to think men ought not to
fight in front of ladies," said the Judge. He was a fair-sized man with
strong shoulders and a straight body: though not far from seventy, he looked
to be in his fifties. He clenched his fists and they were hard and hairy as
coconuts. "On the other hand," he said grimly, "I'm ready if you are."
At the moment it looked like a fair enough match. Even the Sheriff
seemed not so sure of himself; with diminishing bravado, he spit between his
fingers, and said Well, nobody was going to accuse him of hitting an old
man. "Or standing up to one," Judge Cool retorted. "Go on, Junius, tuck your
shirt in your pants and trot along home."
The Sheriff appealed to us in the tree. "Save yourselves a lot of
trouble: get out of there and come along with me now." We did not stir,
except that Dolly dropped her veil, as though lowering a curtain on the
subject once for all. Mrs. Buster, the lump on her head like a horn, said
portentously, "Never mind, Sheriff. They've had their chance," and, eyeing
Dolly, (hen the Judge, added: "You may imagine you are getting away with
something. But let me tell you there will be a retribution -not in heaven,
right here on earth."
"Right here on earth," harmonized Mrs. Macy Wheeler.
They left along the path, erect, haughty as a wedding procession, and
passed into the sunlight where the red rolling grass swept up, swallowed
them. Lingering under the tree, the Judge smiled at us and, with a small
courteous bow, said: "Do I remember you offering a drumstick to anybody that
would likeit?"
He might have been put together from parts of the tree, for his nose
was like a wooden peg, his legs were strong as old roots, and his eyebrows
were thick, tough as strips of bark. Among the topmost branches were beards
of silvery moss the color of his center-parted hair, and the cowhide
sycamore leaves, sifting down from a neighboring taller tree, were the color
of his cheeks. Despite his canny, tomcat eyes, the general impression his
face made was that of someone shy and countrified. Ordinarily he was not the
one to make a show of himself. Judge Charlie Cool; there were many who had
taken advantage of his modesty to set themselves above him. Yet none of them
could have claimed, as he could, to be a graduate of Harvard University or
to have twice traveled in Europe. Still, there were those who were resentful
and felt that he put on airs: wasn't he supposed to read a page of Greek
every morning before breakfast? and what kind of a man was it that would
always have flowers in his buttonhole? If he wasn't stuck up, why, some
people asked, had he gone all the way to Kentucky to find a wife instead of
marrying one of our own women? I do not remember the Judge's wife; she died
before I was old enough to be aware of her, therefore an that I repeat comes
second-hand. So: the town never warmed up to Irene Cool, and apparently it
was her own fault. Kentucky women are difficult to begin with, keyed-up,
hellion-hearted, and Irene Cool, who was born a Todd in Bowling Green (Mary
Todd, a second cousin once removed, had married Abraham Lincoln) let
everyone around here know she thought them a backward, vulgar lot: she
received none of the ladies of the town, but Miss Palmer, who did sewing for
her, spread news of how she'd transformed the Judge's house into a place of
taste and style with Oriental rugs and antique furnishings. She drove to and
from Church in a Pierce-Arrow with all the windows rolled up, and in church
itself she sat with a cologned handkerchief against her nose: the smell of
God ain't good enough for Irene Cool. Moreover, she would not permit either
of the local doctors to attend her family, this though she herself was a
semi-invalid: a small backbone dislocation necessitated her sleeping on a
bed of boards. There were crude jokes about the Judge getting full of
splinters. Nevertheless, he fathered two sons, Todd and Charles Jr., both
born in Kentucky where their mother had gone in order that they could claim
to be natives of the bluegrass state. But those who tried to make out the
Judge got the brunt of his wife's irritableness, that he was a miserable
man, never had much of a case, and after she died even the hardest of their
critics had to admit old Charlie must surely have loved his Irene. For
during the last two years of her life, when she was very ill and fretful, he
retired as circuit judge, then took her abroad to the places they had been
on their honeymoon. She never came back; she is buried in Switzerland. Not
so long ago Carrie Wells, a schoolteacher here in town, went on a group tour
to Europe; the only thing connecting our town with that continent are
graves, the graves of soldier boys and Irene Cool; and Carrie, armed with a
camera for snapshots, set out to visit them all: though she stumbled about
in a cloud-high cemetery one whole afternoon, she could not find the Judge's
wife, and it is funny to think of Irene Cool, serenely there on a
mountain-side still unwilling to receive. There was not much left for the
Judge when he came back; politicians like Meiself Tallsap and his gang had
come into power: those boys couldn't afford to have Charlie Cool sitting in
the courthouse. It was sad to see the Judge, a fine-looking man dressed in
narrowcut suits with a black silk band sewn around his sleeve and a Cherokee
rose in his buttonhole, sad to see him with nothing to do except go to the
post office or stop in at the bank. His sons worked in. the bank,
prissy-mouthed, prudent men who might have been twins, for they both were
marshmallow-white, slump-shouldered, watery-eyed. Charles Jr., he was the
one who had lost his hair while still in college, was vice-president of the
bank, and Todd, the younger son, was chief cashier. In no way did they
resemble their father, except that they had married Kentucky women. These
daughters-in-law had taken over the Judge's house and divided it into two
apartments with separate entrances; there was an arrangement whereby (he old
man lived with first one son's family, then the other. No wonder he'd felt
like taking a walk to the woods.
"Thank you. Miss Dolly," he said, wiping his mouth with the back of his
hand. "That's the best drumstick I've had since I was a boy."
"It's the least we can do, a drumstick; you were very brave." There was
in Dolly's voice an emotional, feminine tremor that struck me as unsuitable,
not dignified; so, too, it must have seemed to Catherine: she gave Dolly a
reprimanding glance. "Won't you have something more, a piece of cake?"
"No ma'm, thank you, I've had a sufficiency." He unloosened from his
vest a gold watch and chain, then lassoed the chain to a strong twig above
his head; it hung like a Christmas ornament, and its feathery faded ticking
might have been the heartbeat of a delicate thing, a firefly, a frog. "If
you can hear time passing it makes the day last longer. I've come to
appreciate a long day." He brushed back the fur of the squirrels, which lay
curled in a corner as though they were only asleep. "Right through the head:
good shooting, son."
Of course I gave the credit to the proper party. "Riley Hen-derson, was
it?" said the Judge, and went on to say it was Riley who had let our
whereabouts be known. "Before that, they must have sent off a hundred
dollars' worth of telegrams," he told us, tickled at the thought. "I guess
it was the idea of all that money that made Verena take to her bed."
Scowling, Dolly said, "It doesn't make a particle of sense, all of them
behaving ugly that way. They seemed mad enough to kill us, though I can't
see why, or what it has to do with Verena: she knew we were going away to
leave her in peace, I told her, I even left a note. But if she's sick-is
she. Judge? I've never known her to be."
"Never a day," said Catherine.
"Oh, she's upset all right," the Judge said with a certain contentment
"But Verena's not the woman to come down with anything an aspirin couldn't
fix. I remember when she wanted to rearrange the cemetery, put up some kind
of mausoleum to house herself and all you Talbos. One of the ladies around
here came to me and said Judge, don't you think Verena Talbo is the most
morbid person in town, contemplating such a big tomb for herself? and I said
No, the only thing morbid was that she was willing to spend the money when
not for an instant did she believe she was ever going to die."
"I don't like to hear talk against my sister," said Dolly curtly.
"She's worked hard, she deserves to have things as she wants them. It's our
fault, someway we failed her, there was no place for us in her house."
Catherine's cotton-wadding squirmed in her Jaw like chewing tobacco.
"Are you my Dollyheart? or some hypocrite? He's a friend, you ought to tell
him the truth, how That One and the little Jew was stealing our medicine..."
The Judge applied for a translation, but Dolly said it was simply
nonsense, nothing worth repeating and, diverting him, asked if he knew how
to skin a squirrel. Nodding dreamily, he gazed away from us, above us, his
acomlike eyes scanning the sky-fringed, breeze-fooled leaves. "It may be
that there is no place for any of us. Except we know there is, somewhere;
and if we found it, but lived there only a moment, we could count ourselves
blessed. This could be your place," he said, shivering as though in the sky
spreading wings had cask a cold shade. "And mine."
Subtly as the gold watch spun its sound of time, the afternoon curved
toward twilight. Mist from the river, autumn haze, trailed moon-colors among
the bronze, the blue trees, and a halo, an image of winter, ringed the
paling sun. Still the Judge did not leave us: 'Two women and a boy? at the
mercy of night? and Junius Candle, those fools up to God knows what? I'm
sticking with you." Surely, of the four of us, it was the Judge who had most
found his place in the tree. It was a pleasure to watch him, all twinkly as
a hare's nose, and feeling himself a man again, more than that, a protector.
He skinned the squirrels with a jackknife, while in the dusk I gathered
sticks and built under the tree a fire for the frying pan. Dolly opened the
bottle of blackberry wine; she justified this by referring to a chill in the
air. The squirrels turned out quite well, very tender, and the Judge said
proudly that we should taste his fried catfish sometime. We sipped the wine
in silence; a smell of leaves and smoke carrying from the cooling fire
called up thoughts of other autumns, and we sighed, heard, like sea-roar,
singings in the field of grass. A candle flickered in a mason jar, and gipsy
moths, balanced, blowing about the flame, seemed to pilot its scarf of
yellow among the black branches.
There was, just then, not a footfall, but a nebulous sense of
intrusion: it might have been nothing more than the moon coming out. Except
there was no moon; nor stars. It was dark as the blackberry wine. "I think
there is someone-something down there," said Dolly, expressing what we all
felt
The Judge lifted the candle. Night-crawlers slithered away from its
lurching light, a snowy owl flew between the trees. "Who goes there?" he
challenged with the conviction of a soldier. "Answer up, who goes there?"
"Me, Riley Henderson." It was indeed. He separated from the shadows,
and his upraised, grinning face looked warped, wicked in the candlelight.
"Just thought I'd see how you were getting on. Hope you're not sore at me: I
wouldn't have told where you were, not if I'd known what it was all about."
"Nobody blames you, son," said the Judge, and I remembered it was he
who had championed Riley's cause against his uncle Horace Holton: there was
an understanding between them. "We're enjoying a small taste of wine. I'm
sure Miss Dolly would be pleased to have you join us."
Catherine complained there was no room; another ounce, and those old
boards would give way. StiB, we scrunched together to make a place for
Riley, who had no sooner squeezed into it than Catherine grabbed a fistful
of his hair. "That's for today with you pointing your gun at us like I told
you not to; and this," she said, yanking again and speaking distinctively
enough to be understood, "pays you back for setting the Sheriff on us."
It seemed to me that Catherine was impertinent, but Riley grunted
good-naturedly, and said she might have better cause to be pulling
somebody's hair before the night was over. For there was, he told us,
excited feelings in the town, crowds like Saturday night; the Reverend and
Mrs. Buster especially were brewing trouble: Mrs. Buster was sitting on her
front porch showing callers the bump on her head. Sheriff Candle, he said,
had persuaded Verona to authorize a warrant for our arrest on the grounds
that we had stolen property belonging to her.
"And Judge," said Riley, his manner grave, perplexed, Хthey've even got
the idea they're going to arrest you. Disturbing the peace and obstructing
justice, that's what I heard. Maybe I shouldn't tell you this-but outside
the bank I ran into one of your boys, Todd. I asked him what he was going to
do about it, about them arresting you, I mean; and he said Nothing, said
they'd been expecting something of the kind, that you'd brought it on
yourself."
Leaning, the Judge snuffed out the candle; it was as though an
expression was occurring in his face which he did not want us to see. In the
dark one of us was crying, after a moment we knew that it was Dolly, and the
sound of her tears set off silent explosions of love that, running the full
circle round, bound us each to the other. Softly, the Judge said: "When they
come we must be ready for them. Now, everybody listen to me..."
We must know our position to defend it; that is a primary rule.
Therefore: what has brought us together? Trouble. Miss Dolly and her
friends, they are in trouble. You, Riley; we both are in trouble. We belong
in this tree or we wouldn't be here." Dolly grew silent under the confident
sound of the Judge's voice; he said: "Today, when I started out with the
Sheriffs party, I was a man convinced that his life will have passed
un-communicated and without trace. I think now that I will not have been so
unfortunate. Miss Dolly, how long? fifty, sixty years? it was that far ago
that I remember you, a stiff and blushing child riding to town in your
father's wagon-never getting down from the wagon because you didn't want us
town-children to see you had no shoes."
"They had shoes. Dolly and That One," Catherine muttered. "It was me
that didn't have no shoes."
"All the years that I've seen you, never known you, not ever
recognized, as I did today, what you are: a spirit, a pagan..."
"A pagan?" said Dolly, alarmed but interested.
"At least, then, a spirit, someone not to be calculated by the eye
alone. Spirits are accepters of life, they grant its differences-and
consequently are always in trouble. Myself, I should never have been a
Judge; as such, I was too often on the wrong side: the law doesn't admit
differences. Do you remember old Carper, the fisherman who had a houseboat
on the river? He was chased out of town-wanted to marry that pretty little
colored girl, I think she works for Mrs. Postum now; and you know she loved
him, I used to see them when I went fishing, they were very happy together;
she was to him what no one has been to me, the one person in the world- from
whom nothing is held back. Still, if he had succeeded in marrying her, it
would have been the Sheriff's duty to arrest and my duty to sentence him. I
sometimes imagine all those whom I've called guilty have passed the real
guilt on to me: it's partly that that makes me want once before I die to be
right on the right side."
"You on the right side now. That One and the Jew..."
"Hush," said Dolly.
"The one person in the world." It was Riley repeating the Judge's
phrase; his voice lingered inquiringly.
"I mean," the Judge explained, "a person to whom everything can be
said. Am I an idiot to want such a thing? But ah, the energy we spend hiding
from one another, afraid as we are of being identified. But here we are,
identified: five fools in a tree. A great piece of luck provided we know how
to use it: no longer any need to worry about the picture we present -free to
find out who we truly are. If we know that no one can dislodge us; it's the
uncertainty concerning themselves that makes our friends conspire to deny
the differences. By scraps and bits I've in the past surrendered myself to
strangers-men who disappeared down the gangplank, got off at the next
station: put together, maybe they would've made the one person in the
world-but there he is with a dozen different faces moving down a hundred
separate streets. This is my chance to find that man-you are him. Miss
Dolly, Riley, all of you."
Catherine said, "I'm no man with any dozen faces: tile notion," which
irritated Dolly, who told her if she couldn't speak respectably why not just
go to sleep. "But Judge," said Dolly, "I'm not sure I know what it is you
have in mind we should tell each other. Secrets?" she finished lamely.
"Secrets, no, no." The Judge scratched a match and relighted the
candle; his face sprang upon us with an expression unexpectedly pathetic: we
must help him, he was pleading. "Speak of the night, the fact there is no
moon. What one says hardly matters, only the trust with which it is said,
the sympathy with which it is received. Irene, my wife, a remarkable woman,
we might have shared anything, and yet, yet nothing in us combined, we could
not touch. She died in my arms, and at the last I said. Are you happy,
Irene? have I made you happy? Happy happy happy, those were her last words:
equivocal. I have never understood whether she was saying yes, or merely
answering with an echo: I should know if I'd ever known her. My sons. I do
not enjoy their esteem: I've wanted it, more as a man than as a father.
Unfortunately, (hey feel they know something shameful about me. Ill tell you
what it is." His virile eyes, faceted with candle-glow, examined us one by
one, as though testing our attention, trust "Five years ago, nearer six, I
sat down in a train-seat where some child had left a child's magazine. I
picked it up and was looking through it when I saw on the back cover
addresses of children who wanted to correspond with other children. There
was a little girl in Alaska, her name appealed to me. Heather Falls. I sent
her a picture postcard; Lord, it seemed a harmless and pleasant thing to do.
She answered at once, and the letter quite astonished me; it was a very
intelligent account of life in Alaska-charming descriptions of her father's
sheep ranch, of northern lights. She was thirteen and enclosed a photograph
of herself-not pretty, but a wise and kind looking child. I hunted through
some old albums, and found a Kodak made on a fishing trip when I was
fifteen-out in the sun and with a trout in my hand: it looked new enough. I
wrote her as though I were still that boy, told her of the gun I'd got for
Christmas, how the dog had had pups and what we'd named them, described a
tent-show that had come to town. To be growing up again and have a
sweetheart in Alaska-well, it was fun for an old man sitting alone listening
to the noise of a clock. Later on she wrote she'd fallen in love with a
fellow she knew, and I felt a real pang of jealousy, the way a youngster
would; but we have remained friends: two years ago, when I told her I was
getting ready for law school, she sent me a gold nugget-it would bring me
luck, she said." He took it from his pocket and held it out for us to see:
it made her come so close. Heather Palls, as though the gently bright gift
balanced in his palm was part of her heart.
"And that's what they think is shameful?" said Dolly, more piqued than
indignant. "Because you've helped keep company a lonely little child in
Alaska? It snows there so much."
Judge Cool closed his hand over the nugget. "Not that they've mentioned
it to me. But I've heard them talking at night, my sons and their wives:
wanting to know what to do about me. Of course they'd spied out the letters.
I don't believe in locking drawers-seems strange a man can't live without
keys in what was at least once his own house. They think it all a sign
of..." He tapped his head.
"I had a letter once. Collin, sugar, pour me a taste," said Catherine,
indicating the wine. "Sure enough, I had a letter once, still got it
somewhere, kept it twenty years wondering who was wrote it Said Hello
Catherine, come on to Miami and marry with me, love Bill."
"Catherine. A man asked you to marry him-and you never told one word of
it to me?"
Catherine lifted a shoulder. "Well, Dollyheart, what was (he Judge
saying? You don't tell anybody everything. Besides, I've known a peck of
Bills-wouldn't study marrying any of them. What worries my mind is, which
one of the Bills was it wrote that letter? I'd like to know, seeing as it's
the only letter I ever got. It could be the Bill that put the roof on my
house; course, by the time the roof was up-my goodness, I have got old, been
a long day since I've given it two thoughts. There was Bill that came to
plow the garden, spring of 1913 it was; that man sure could plow a straight
row. And Bill that built the chicken-coop: went away on a Pullman job; might
have been him wrote me that letter. Or Bill-uh uh, his name was Fred-Collin,
sugar, this wine is mighty good." ^ "I may have a drop more myself," said
Dolly. "I mean, Catherine has given me such a..."
"Hmn," said Catherine.
"If you spoke more slowly, or chewed less..." The Judge thought
Catherine's cotton was tobacco.
Riley had withdrawn a little from us; slumped over, he stared stilly
into the inhabited dark: I, I, I, a bird cried, "I- you're wrong. Judge," he
said.
"How so, son?"
The caught-up uneasiness that I associated with Riley swamped his face.
'I'm not in trouble: I'm nothing-or would you call that my trouble? I lie
awake thinking what do I know how to do? hunt, drive a car, fool around; and
I get scared when I think maybe that's all it will ever come to. Another
thing, I've got no feelings-except for my sisters, which is different. Take
for instance, I've been going with this girl from Rock City nearly a year,
the longest time I've stayed with one girl. I guess it was a week ago she
flared up and said where's your heart? said if I didn't love her she'd as
soon die.
So I stopped the car on the railroad track; well, I said, lets just sit
here, the Crescent's due in about twenty minutes. We didn't take our eyes
off each other, and I thought isn't it mean (hat I'm looking at you and I
don't feel anything except..."
"Except vanity?" said the Judge.
Riley did not deny it. "And if my sisters were old enough to take care
of themselves, I'd have been willing to wait for (he Crescent to come down
on us,"
It made my stomach hurt to hear him talk like that; I longed to tell
him he was all I wanted to be.
"You said before about the one person in the world. Why couldn't I
think of her like that? Ifs what I want, I'm no good by myself. Maybe, if I
could care for somebody that way, I'd make plans and carry them out: buy
that stretch of land past Parson's Place and build houses on it-I could do
it if I got quiet."
Wind surprised, pealed the leaves, parted night clouds; showers of
starlight were let loose: our candle, as though intimidated by the
incandescence of the opening, star-stabbed sky, toppled, and we could see,
unwrapped above us, a late wayaway wintery moon: it was like a slice of
snow, near and far creatures called to it, hunched moon-eyed frogs, a
claw-voiced wildcat. Catherine hauled out the rose scrapquilt, insisting
Dolly wrap it around herself; then she tucked her arms around me and
scratched my head until I let it relax on her bosom-You cold? she said, and
I wiggled closer: she was good and warm as the old kitchen.
"Son, I'd say you were going at it the wrong end first," said the
Judge, turning up his coat-collar. "How could you care about one girl? Have
you ever cared about one leaf?"
Riley, listening to the wildcat with an itchy hunter's look, snatched
at the leaves blowing about us like midnight butterflies; alive, fluttering
as though to escape and fly, one stayed trapped between his fingers. The
Judge, too: he caught a leaf; and it was worth more in his hand than in
Riley's. Pressing ft mildly against his cheek, he distantly said, "We are
speaking of love. A leaf, a handful of seed-begin with these, learn a little
what it is to love. First, a leaf, a fall of rain, then someone to receive
what a leaf has taught you, what a fall of rain has ripened. No easy
process, understand; it could take a lifetime, it has mine, and still I've
never mastered it-I only know how true it is: that love is a chain of love,
as nature is a chain of life."
"Then," said Dolly with an intake of breath, "I've been in love afl my
life." She sank down into the quilt. "Well, no," and her voice fell off, "I
guess not. I've never loved a," while she searched for the word wind
frolicked her veil, "gentleman. You might say that I've never had the
opportunity. Except Papa," she paused, as though she'd said too much. A
gauze of starlight wrapped her closely as the quilt; something, the reciting
frogs, the string of voices stretching from the field of grass, lured,
impelled her: "But I have loved everything else. Like the color pink; when I
was a child I had one colored crayon, and it was pink; I drew pink cats,
pink trees-for thirty-four years I lived in a pink room. And the box I kept,
it's somewhere in the attic now, I must ask Verena please to give it to me,
it would be nice to see my first loves again: what is there? a dried
honeycomb, an empty hornet's nest, other things, or an orange stuck with
cloves and a jaybird's egg-when I loved those love collected inside me so
that it went flying about like a bird in a sunflower field. But it's best
not to show such things, it burdens people and makes them, I don't know why,
unhappy. Verena scolds at me for what she calls hiding in comers, but I'm
afraid of scaring people if I show that I care for them. Like Paul Jimson's
wife; after he got sick and couldn't deliver the papers any more, remember
she took over his roulte? poor thin little thing just dragging herself with
that sack of papers. It was one cold afternoon, she came up on the porch her
nose running and tears of cold hanging in her eyes-she put down the paper,
and I said wait, hold on, and took my handkerchief to wipe her eyes: I
wanted to say, if I could, that I was sorry and that I loved her-my hand
grazed her face, she turned with the smallest shout and ran down the steps.
Then on, she always tossed the papers from the street, and whenever I heard
them hit the porch it sounded in my bones."
"Paul Jimson's wife: worrying yourself over trash like that!" said
Catherine, rinsing her mouth with the last of the wine. "I've got a bowl of
goldfish, just 'cause I like them don't make me love the world. Love a lot
of mess, my foot. You can talk what you want, not going to do anything but
harm, bringing up what's best forgot. People ought to keep more things to
themselves. The deepdown ownself part of you, that's the good part: what's
left of a human being that goes around speaking his privates? The Judge, he
say we all up here 'cause of trouble some kind. Shoot! We here for very
plain reasons. One is, this our tree-house, and two, That One and the Jew's
trying to steal what belongs to us. Three: you here, every one of you,
'cause you want to be: the deepdown part of you tells you so. This last
don't apply to me. I like a roof over my own head. Dollyheart, give the
Judge a portion of that quilt: man's shivering like was Halloween." Shyly
Dolly lifted a wing of the quilt and nodded to him; the Judge, not at all
shy, slipped under it. The branches of the China tree swayed like immense
oars dipping into a sea rolling and chilled by the far far stars. Left
alone, Riley sat hunched up in himself like a pitiful orphan. "Snuggle up,
hard head: you cold like anybody else," said Catherine, offering him the
position on her right that I occupied on her left. He didn't seem to want
to; maybe he noticed that she smelled like bitter-weed, or maybe he thought
it was sissy; but I said come on, Riley, Catherine's good and warm, better
than a quilt. After a while Riley moved over to us. It was quiet for so long
I thought everyone had gone to sleep. Then I felt Catherine stiffen. "It's
just come to me who it was sent my letter: Bill Nobody. That One, that's
who. Sure as my name's Catherine Creek she got some nigger in Miami to mail
me a letter, thinking I'd scoot off there never to be heard from again."
Dolly sleepily said hush now hush, shut your eyes: "Nothing to be afraid of;
we've men here to watch out for us." A branch swung back, moonlight ignited
the tree: I saw the Judge take Dolly's hand. It was the last thing I saw.
Riley was the first to wake, and he wakened me. On the skyline three
morning stars swooned in the flush of an arriving sun; dew tinseled the
leaves, a jet chain of blackbirds swung out to meet the mounting light.
Riley beckoned for me to come with him; we slid silently down through the
tree. Catherine, snoring with abandon, did not hear us go; nor did Dolly and
the Judge who, like two children lost in a witch-ruled forest, were asleep
with their cheeks together.
We headed toward the river, Riley leading the way. The legs of his
canvas trousers whispered against each other. Every little bit he stopped
and stretched himself, as though he'd been riding on a train. Somewhere we
came to a hill of already about and busy red ants. Riley unbuttoned his fly
and began to flood them; I don't know that it was funny, but I laughed to
keep him company. Naturally I was insulted when he switched around and peed
on my shoe. I thought it meant he had no respect for me. I said to him why
would he want to do a thing like that? Don't you know a joke? he said, and
threw a hugging arm around my shoulder.
If such events can be dated, this I would say was the moment Riley
Henderson and I became friends, the moment, at least, when there began in
him an affectionate feeling for me that supported my own for him. Through
brown briars under brown trees we walked deep in the woods down to the
river.
Leaves like scarlet hands floated on the green slow water. A poking end
of a drowned log seemed the peering head of some river-beast. We moved on to
the old houseboat, where the water was clearer. The houseboat was slightly
tipped over; drifts of waterbay sheddings were like a rich rust on its roof
and declining deck. The inside cabin had a mystifying tended-to look.
Scattered around were issues of an adventure magazine, there was a kerosene
lamp and a line of beer empties ranged on a table; the bunk sported a
blanket, a pillow, and the pillow was colored with pink markings of
lipstick. In a rush I realized the houseboat was someone's hide-out; then,
from the grin taking over Riley's homely face, I knew whose it was. "What's
more," he said, "you can get in a little fishing on the side. Don't you tell
anybody." I crossed an admiring heart.
While we were undressing I had a kind of dream. I dreamed the houseboat
had been launched on the river with the five of us aboard: our laundry
flapped like sails, in the pantry a coconut cake was cooking, a geranium
bloomed on the windowsill -together we floated over changing rivers past
varying views.
The last of summer warmed the climbing sun, but the water, at first
plunge, sent me chattering and chicken-skinned back to the deck where I
stood watching Riley unconcernedly propel himself to and fro between the
banks. An island of bamboo reeds, standing like the legs of cranes, shivered
in a shallow patch, and Riley waded out among them with lowered, hunting
eyes. He signaled to me. Though it hurt, I eased down into the cold river
and swam to join him. The water bending the bamboo was clear and divided
into knee-deep basins-Riley hovered above one: in the thin pool a coal-black
catfish lay doz-ingly trapped. We closed in upon it with fingers tense as
fork-prongs: thrashing backwards, it flung itself straight into my hands.
The flailing razory whiskers made a gash across my palm, still I had the
sense to hold on-thank goodness, for it's the only fish I ever caught. Most
people don't believe it when I tell about catching a catfish barehanded; I
say well ask Riley Henderson. We drove a spike of bamboo through its gills
and swam back to the houseboat holding it aloft. Riley said it was one of
the fattest catfish he'd ever seen: we would take it back to the tree and,
since he'd bragged what a great hand he was at frying a catfish, let the
Judge fix it for breakfast As it turned out, that fish never got eaten.
All this time at the tree-house there was a terrible situation. During
our absence Sheriff Candle had returned backed by deputies and a warrant of
arrest. Meanwhile, unaware of what was in store, Riley and I lazed along
kicking over toadstools, sometimes stopping to skip rocks on the water.
We still were some distance away when rioting voices reached us; they
rang in the trees like axe-blows. I heard Catherine scream: roar, rather. It
made such soup of my legs I couldn't keep up with Riley, who grabbed a stick
and began to run. I zigged one way, zagged another, then, having made a
wrong turn, came out on the grass-field's rim. And there waa Catherine.
Her dress was ripped down the front: she was good as naked. Ray Oliver,
Jack Mill, and Big Eddie Stover, three grown men, cronies of the Sheriff,
were dragging and slapping her through the grass. I wanted to kill them; and
Catherine was trying to: but she didn't stand a chance-though she butted
them with her head, bounced them with her elbows. Big Eddie Stover was
legally born a bastard; the other two made the grade on their own. It was
Big Eddie that went for me, and I slammed my catfish flat in his face.
Catherine said, "You leave my baby be, he's an orphan"; and, when she saw
that he had ms around the waist: "In the booboos, Collin, kick his old
boo-boos." So I did. Big Eddie's face curdled like clabber. Jack Mill (he's
the one who a year later got locked in the ice-plant and froze to death:
served him right) snatched at me, but I bolted across the field and crouched
down in the tallest grass. I don't think they bothered to look for me, they
had their hands so full with Catherine; she fought them the whole way, and I
watched her, sick with knowing there was no help to give, until they passed
out of sight over the ridge into the cemetery.
Overhead two squawking crows crossed, recrossed, as though making an
evil sign. I crept toward the woods-near me, then, I heard boots cutting
through the grass. It was the Sheriff; with him was a man called Will
Harris. Tall as a door, buffalo-shouldered, Will Harris had once had his
throat eaten out by a mad dog; the scars were bad enough, but his damaged
voice was worse: it sounded giddy and babyfied, like a midget's. They passed
so close I could have untied Will's shoes. His tiny voice, shrilling at the
Sheriff, jumped with Morris Ritz's name and Verena's: I couldn't make out
exactly, except something had happened about Morris Ritz and Verena had sent
Will to $ bring back the Sheriff. The Sheriff said: "What in hell does the
woman want, an army?" When they were gone I sprang up and ran into the
woods.
In sight of the China tree I hid behind a fan of fern: I thought one of
the Sheriff's men might still be hanging around. But there was nothing,
simply a lonely singing bird. And no one in the tree-house: smoky as ghosts,
streamers of sunlight illuminated its emptiness. Numbly I moved into view
and leaned my head against the tree's trunk; at this, the vision of the
houseboat returned: our laundry flapped, the geranium bloomed, the carrying
river carried us out to sea into the world.
"Collin." My name fell out of the sky. "Is that you I hear? are you
crying?"
It was Dolly, calling from somewhere I could not see- until, climbing
to the tree's heart, I saw in the above distance Dolly's dangling childish
shoe. "Careful boy," said the Judge, who was beside her, "you'll shake us
out of here." Indeed, like gulls resting on a ship's mast, they were sitting
in the absolute tower of the tree; afterwards. Dolly was to remark that the
view afforded was so enthralling she regretted not having visited there
before. The Judge, it developed, had seen the approach of the Sheriff and
his men in time for them to take refuge in those heights. "Wait, we're
coming," she said; and, with one arm steadied by the Judge, she descended
like a fine lady sweeping down a flight of stairs.
We kissed each other; she continued to hold me. "She went to look for
you-Catherine; we didn't know where you were, and I was so afraid, I..." Her
fear tingled my hands: 'she felt like a shaking small animal, a rabbit just
taken from the trap. The Judge looked on with humbled eyes, fumbling hands;
he seemed to feel in the way, perhaps because he thought he'd failed us in
not preventing what had happened to Catherine. But then, what could he have
done? Had he gone to her aid he would only have got himself caught: they
weren't fooling, the Sheriff, Big Eddie Stover and the others. I was the one
to feel guilty. If Catherine hadn't gone to look for me they probably never
would have caught her. I told of what had taken place in the field of grass.
But Dolly really wanted not to hear. As thought scattering a dream she
brushed back her veil. "I want to believe Catherine is gone; and I can't. If
I could I would run to find her. I want to believe Verena has done this: and
I can't. Collin, what do you think; is it that after all the world is a bad
place? Last night I saw it so differently."
The Judge focused his eyes on mine: he was trying, I think, to tell me
how to answer. But I knew myself. No matter what passions compose them, all
private worlds are good, they are never vulgar places: Dolly had been made
too civilized by her own, the one she shared with Catherine and me, to feel
the winds of wickedness that circulate elsewhere: No, Dolly, the world is
not a bad place. She passed a hand across her forehead: "If you are right,
then in a moment Catherine will be walking under the tree- she won't have
found you or Riley, but she will have come back."
"By the way," said the Judge, "where is Riley?"
He'd run ahead of me, that was the last I'd seen of him; with an
anxiety that struck us simultaneously, the Judge and I stood up and started
yelling his name. Our voices, curving slowly around the woods, again, again
swung back on silence. I knew what had happened: he'd fallen into an old
Indian well.-many's the case I could tell you of. I was about to suggest
this when abruptly the Judge put a finger to his Ups. The man must have had
ears like a dog: I couldn't hear a sound. But he was right, there was
someone on the path. It turned out to be Maude Riordan and Riley's older
sister, the smart one, Elizabeth. They were very dear friends and wore white
matching sweaters, Elizabeth was carrying a violin case.
"Look here, Elizabeth," said the Judge, startling the girls, for as yet
they had not discovered us. "Look here, child, have you seen your brother?"
Maude recovered first, and it was she who answered. "We sure have," she
said emphatically. "I was walking Elizabeth home from her lesson when Riley
came along doing ninety miles an hour; nearly ran us over. You should speak
to him, Elizabeth. Anyway, he asked us to come down here and tell you not to
worry, said he'd explain everything later. Whatever that means."
Both Maude and Elizabeth had been in my class at school; they'd jumped
a grade and graduated the previous June. I knew Maude especially well
because for a summer I'd taken piano lessons from her mother; her father
taught violin, and Elizabeth Henderson was one of his pupils. Maude herself
played the violin beautifully; just a week before I'd read in the town paper
where she'd been invited to play on a radio program in Birmingham: I was
glad to hear it. The Riordans were nice people, considerate and cheerful. It
was not because I wanted to leam piano that I took lessons with Mrs.
Riordan-Х lather, I liked her blond largeness, the sympathetic, educated
talk that went on while we sat before the splendid upright that smelled of
polish and attention; and what I particularly liked was afterwards, when
Maude would ask me to have a lemonade on the cool back porch. She was
snub-nosed and elfin-eared, a skinny excitable girl who from her father had
inherited Irish black eyes and from her mother platinum hair pale as
morning-not the least like her best friend, the soulful and shadowy
Elizabeth. I don't know what those two talked about, books and music maybe.
But with me Maude's subjects were boys, dates, drugstore slander: didn't I
think it was terrible, the awful girls Riley Henderson chased around with?
she felt so sorry for Elizabeth, and thought it wonderful how, despite all,
Elizabeth held up her head. It didn't take a genius to see that Maude was
heartset on Riley; nevertheless, I imagined for a while that I was in love
with her. At home I kept mentioning her until finally Catherine said Oh
Maude Riordan, she's too scrawny-nothing on her to pinch, a man's crazy to
give her the time of day. Once I showed Maude a big evening, made for her
with my own hands a sweet-pea corsage, then took her to Phil's Cafe where we
had Kansas City steaks; afterwards, there was a dance at the Lola Hotel.
Still she behaved as though she hadn't expected to be kissed good night. "I
don't think that's necessary, Collin-though it was cute of you to take me
out." I was let down, you can see why; but as I didn't allow myself to brood
over it our friendship went on little changed. One day, at the end of a
lesson, Mrs. Riordan omitted the usual new piece for home practice; instead,
she kindly informed me that she preferred not to continue with my lessons:
"We're very fond of you, Collin, I don't have to say that you're welcome in
this house at any time. But dear, (he truth is you have no ability for
music; it happens that way occasionally, and I don't think it's fair on
either of us to pretend otherwise." She was right, all the same my pride was
hurt, I couldn't help feeling pushed-out, it made me miserable to think of
the Riordans, and gradually, in about the time it took to forget my few
hard-learned tunes, I drew a curtain on them. At first Maude used to stop me
after school and ask me over to her house; one way or another I always got
out of it; furthermore, it was winter then and I liked to stay in the
kitchen with Dolly and Catherine. Catherine wanted to know: How come you
don't talk any more about Maude Riordan? I said because I don't, that's all.
But while I didn't talk, I must have been thinking; at least, seeing her
there under the tree, old feelings squeezed my chest For the first time I
considered the circumstances self-consciously: did we. Dolly, the Judge and
I, strike Maude and Elizabeth as a ludicrous sight? I could be judged by
them, they were my own age. But from their manner we might just have met on
the street or at the drugstore.
The Judge said, "Maude, how's your daddy? Heard he hasn't been feeling
too good."
"He can't complain. You know how men are, always looking for an
ailment. And yourself, sir?"
"That's a pity," said the Judge, his mind wandering. "You give your
daddy my regards, and tell him I hope he feels better."
Maude submitted agreeably: "I will, sir, thank you. I know hell
appreciate your concern." Draping her skirt, she dropped on the moss and
settled beside her an unwilling Elizabeth. For Elizabeth no one used a
nickname; you might begin by calling her Betty, but in a week it would be
Elizabeth again: that was her effect Languid, banana-boned, she had dour
black hair and an apathetic, at moments saintly face-in an enamel locket
worn around her lily-stalk neck she preserved a miniature of her missionary
father. "Look, Elizabeth, isn't that a becoming hat Miss Dolly has on?
Velvet, with a veil."
Dolly roused herself; she patted her head. "I don't generally wear
hats-we intended to travel."
"We heard you'd left home," said Maude; and, proceeding more frankly;
"In fact that's all anyone talks about, isnt it, Elizabeth?" Elizabeth
nodded without enthusiasm. "Gracious, there are some peculiar stories going
around. I mean, on the way here we met Gus Ham and he said that colored
woman Catherine Crook (is that her name?) had been arrested for hitting Mrs.
Buster with a mason jar."
In sloping tones. Dolly said, "Catherine-had nothing to do with it."
"I guess someone did," said Maude. "We saw Mrs. Buster in the post
office this morning; she was showing everybody a bump on her head, quite
large. It looked genuine to us, didn't it Elizabeth?" Elizabeth yawned. "To
be sure, I don't care who hit her, I think they ought to get a medal"
"No," sighed Dolly, "it isn't proper, it shouldn't have happened. We
all will have a lot to be sorry for."
At last Maude took account of me. "I've been wanting to see you,
Collin," she said hurrying as though to hide an embarrassment: mine, not
hers. "Elizabeth and I are planning a Halloween party, a real scary one, and
we thought it would be grand to dress you in a skeleton suit and sit you in
a dark room to tell people's fortunes: because you're so good at..."
"Fibbing," said Elizabeth disinterestedly.
"Which is what fortune-telling is," Maude elaborated.
I don't know what gave them the idea I was such a storyteller, unless
it was at school I'd shown a superior talent for alibis. I said it sounded
fine, the party. "But you better not count on me. We might be in jail by
then."
"Oh well, in that case," said Maude, as if accepting one of my old and
usual excuses for not coming to her house.
"Say, Maude," said the Judge, helping us out of the silence that had
fallen, "you're getting to be a celebrity: I saw in the paper where you're
going to play on the radio."
As though dreaming aloud, she explained the broadcast was the finals of
a state competition; if she won, the prize was a musical scholarship at the
University: even second prize meant a half-scholarship. "I'm going to play a
piece of daddy's, a serenade: he wrote it for me the day I was born. But
it's a surprise, I don't want him to know."
"Make her play it for you," said Elizabeth, unclasping her violin case.
Maude was generous, she did not have to be begged. The wine-colored
violin, coddled under her chin, trilled as she tuned it; a brazen butterfly,
lighting on the bow, was spiraled away as the bow swept across the strings
singing a music that seemed a blizzard of butterflies flying, a sky-rocket
of spring sweet to hear in the gnarled fall woods. It slowed, saddened, her
silver hair drooped across the violin. We applauded; after we'd stopped
there went on sounding a mysterious extra pair of hands. Riley stepped from
behind a bank of fem, and when she saw him Maude's cheeks pinked. I don't
think she would have played so well if she'd known he was listening.
Riley sent the girls home; they seemed reluctant to go, but Elizabeth
was not used to disobeying her brother. "Lock the doors," he told her, "and
Maude, I'd appreciate it if you'd spend the night at our place: anybody
comes by asking for me, say you don't know where I am."
I had to help him into the tree, for he'd brought back his gun and a
knapsack heavy with provisions-a bottle of rose and raisin wine, oranges,
sardines, wieners, rolls from the Katydid Bakery, a jumbo box of animal
crackers: each item appearing stepped up our spirits, and Dolly, overcome by
the animal crackers, said Riley ought to have a kiss.
But it was with grave face that we listened to his report.
When we'd separated in the woods it was toward the sound of Catherine
that he'd run. This had brought him to the grass: he'd been watching when I
had my encounter with Big Eddie Stover. I said well why didn't you help me?
"You were doing all right; I don't figure Big Eddie's liable to forget you
too soon: poor fellow limped along doubled over." Besides, it occurred to
him that no one knew he was one of us, that he'd Joined us in the tree: he
was right to have stayed hidden, it made it possible for him to follow
Catherine and the deputies into town. They'd stuffed her into the
rumble-seat of Big Eddie's old coupe and driven straight to jail: Riley
trailed them in his car. "By the time we reached the jail she seemed to have
got quieted down; there was a little crowd hanging around, lads, some old
farmers-you would have been proud of Catherine, she walked through them
holding her dress together and her head like this." He tilted his head at a
royal angle. How often I'd seen Catherine do that, especially when anyone
criticized her (for hiding puzzle pieces, spreading misinformation, not
having her teeth fixed); and Dolly, recognizing it too, had to blow her
nose. "But," said Riley, "as soon as she was inside the jail she kicked up
another fuss." In the jail there are only four cells, two for colored and
two for white. Catherine had objected to being put in a colored people's
cell.
The Judge stroked his chin, waved his head. "You didn't get a chance to
speak to her? She ought to have had the comfort of knowing one of us was
there."
'I stood around hoping she'd come to the window. But then I heard the
other news."
Thinking back, I don't see how Riley could have waited so bug to tell
us. Because, my God: our friend from Chicago, that hateful Dr. Morris Ritz,
had skipped town after rifling Verena's safe of twelve thousand dollars in
negotiable bonds and more than seven hundred dollars in cash: that, as we
later learned, was not half his loot. But wouldn't you know? I realized this
was what baby-voiced Will Harris had been recounting to the Sheriff: no
wonder Verena had sent a hurry call: her troubles with us must have become
quite a side issue. Riley had a few details: he knew that Verena, upon
discovering the safe door swung open (this happened in the office she kept
above her drygoods store) had whirled around the comer to the Lola Hotel,
there to find that Morris Ritz had checked out the previous evening: she
fainted: when they-revived her she fainted all over again.
Dolly's soft face hollowed; an urge to go to Verena was rising, at the
same moment some sense of self, a deeper will, held her. Regretfully she
gazed at me. "It's better you know it now, Collin; you shouldn't have to
wait until you're as old as I am: the world is a bad place."
A change, like a shift of wind, overcame the Judge: he looked at once
his age, autumnal, bare, as though he believed that Dolly, by accepting
wickedness, had forsaken him. But I knew she had not: he'd called her a
spirit, she was really a woman. Uncorking the rose and raisin wine, Riley
spilled its topaz color into four glasses; after a moment he filled a fifth,
Catherine's. The Judge, raising the wine to his lips, proposed a toast: "To
Catherine, give her trust." We lifted our glasses, and "Oh Collin," said
Dolly, a sudden stark thought widening her eyes, "you and I, we're the only
ones that can understand a word she says!"
The following day, which was the first of October, a Wednesday, is one
day I won't forget.
First off, Riley woke me by stepping on my fingers. Dolly, already
awake, insisted I apologize for cursing him. Courtesy, she said, is more
important in the morning than at any other time: particularly when one is
living in such close quarters. The Judge's watch, still bending the twig
like a heavy gold apple, gave the time as six after six. I don't know whose
idea it was, but we breakfasted on oranges and animal crackers and cold
hotdogs. The Judge grouched that a body didn't feel human till he'd had a
pot of hot coffee. We agreed that coffee was what we all most missed. Riley
volunteered to drive into town and get some; also, he would have a chance to
scout around, find out what was going on. He suggested I come with him:
"Nobody's going to see him, not if he stays down in the seat." Although the
Judge objected, saying he thought it foolhardy. Dolly could tell I wanted to
go: I'd yearned so much for a ride in Riley's car that now the opportunity
presented itself nothing, even the prospect that no one might see me, could
have thinned my excitement. Dolly said, "I can't see there's any harm. But
you ought to have a clean shirt: I could plant turnips in the collar of that
one."
The field of grass was without voice, no pheasant rustle, furtive
flurry; the pointed leaves were sharp and blood-red as the aftermath arrows
of a massacre; their brittieness broke beneath our feet as we waded up the
hill into the cemetery. The view from there is very fine: the limitless
trembling surface of River Woods, fifty unfolding miles of ploughed,
wind-milled farmland, far-off the spired courthouse tower, smoking chimneys
of town. I stopped by the graves of my mother and father. I had not often
visited them, it depressed me, the tomb-cold stone-so unlike what I
remembered of them, their aliveness, how she'd cried when he went away to
sell his frigid-aires, how he'd run naked into the street. I wanted flowers
for the terracotta jars sitting empty on the streaked and muddied marble.
Riley helped me; he tore beginning buds off a japonica tree, and watching me
arrange them, said: "I'm glad your ma was nice. Bitches, by and large." I
wondered if he meant his own mother, poor Rose Henderson, who used to make
him hop around (he yard reciting the multiplication table. It did seem to
me, though, that he'd made up for those hard days. After all, he had a car
that was supposed to have cost three thousand dollars. Second-hand, mind
you. It was a foreign car, an Alfa-Romeo roadster (Romeo's Alfa, the joke
was) he'd bought in New Orleans from a politician bound for the
penitentiary.
As we purred along the unpaved road toward town I kept hoping for a
witness: there were certain persons it would have done my heart good to have
seen me sailing by in Riley Hen-derson's car. But it was too early for
anyone much to be about; breakfast was still on the stove, and smoke soared
out the chimneys of passing houses. We turned the comer by the church, drove
around the square and parked in the dirt lane that runs between Cooper's
Livery and the Katydid Bakery. There Riley left me with orders to stay put:
he wouldn't be more than an hour. So, stretching out on the seat, I listened
to the chicanery of thieving sparrows in the livery stable's haystacks,
breathed the fresh bread, tart as currant odors escaping from the bakery.
The couple who owned this bakery, County was their name, Mr. and Mrs. C. C.
County, had to begin their day at three in the morning to be ready by
opening time, eight o'clock. It was a clean prosperous place. Mrs. County
could afford the most expensive clothes at Verena's drygoods store. While I
lay there smelling the good things, the back door of the bakery opened and
Mr. County, broom in hand, swept flour dust into the lane. I guess he was
surprised to see Riley's car, and surprised to find me in it.
"What you up to. Coffin?"
"Up to nothing, Mr. County," I said, and asked myself if he knew about
our trouble.
"Sure am happy October's here," he said, rubbing the air with his
fingers as though the chill woven into it was a material he could feel. "We
have a terrible time in the summer: ovens and all make it too hot to live.
See here, son, there's a gingerbread man waiting for you-come on in and run
him down."
Now he was not the kind of man to get me in there and then call the
Sheriff.
His wife welcomed me into the spiced heat of the oven room as though
she could think of nothing pleasanter than my being there. Most anyone would
have liked Mrs. County. A chunky woman with no fuss about her, she had
elephant ankles, developed arms, a muscular face permanently fire-flushed;
her eyes were like blue cake-icing, her hair looked as if she'd mopped it
around in a flour barrel, and she wore an apron that trailed to the tips of
her toes. Her husband also wore one; sometimes, with the fulsome apron still
tied around him, I'd seen him crossing the street to have a time-off beer
with the men that lean around the comer at Phil's Cafe: he seemed a painted
clown, flopping, powdered, elegantly angular.
Clearing a place on her work table, Mrs. County set me down to a cup of
coffee and a warm tray of cinnamon rolls, the kind Dolly relished. Mr.
County suggested I might prefer something else: "I promised him, what did I
promise? a gingerbread man." His wife socked a lump of dough: "Those are for
kids. He's a grown man; or nearly. Collin, just how old are you?"
"Sixteen."
"Same as Samuel," she said, meaning her son, whom we all called Mule:
inasmuch as he was not much brighter than one. I asked what was their news
of him? because the previous autumn, after having been left back in the
eighth grade three years running. Mule had gone to Pensacola and joined the
Navy. "He's in Panama, last we heard," she said, flattening the dough into a
piecrust. "We don't hear often. I wrote him once, I said Samuel you do
better about writing home or I'm going to write the President exactly how
old you are. Because you know he joined up under false pretenses. I was
darned mad at the time-blamed Mr. Hand up at the schoolhouse: that's why
Samuel did it, he just couldn't tolerate always being left behind in the
eighth grade, him getting so tall and the other children so little. But now
I can see Mr. Hand was right: it wouldn't be fair to the rest of you boys if
they promoted Samuel when he didn't do his work proper. So maybe it turned
out for the best. C. C., show Collin the picture."
Photographed against a background of palms and real sea, four smirking
sailors stood with their arms linked together; underneath was written. God
Bless Mom and Pop, Samuel. It rankled me. Mule, off seeing the world, while
I, well, maybe I deserved a gingerbread man. As I returned the picture, Mr.
County said: "I'm all for a boy serving his country. But the bad part of it
is, Samuel was just getting where he could give us a hand around here. I
sure hate to depend on nigger help. Lying and stealing, never know where you
are."
"It beats me why C.C. carries on like that," said his wife, knotting
her lips. "He knows it irks me. Colored people are no worse than white
people: in some cases, better. I've had occasion to say so to other people
in this town. Like this business about old Catherine Creek. Makes me sick.
Cranky she may be, and peculiar, but there's as good a woman as you'll find.
Which reminds me, I mean to send her a dinner-tray up to the jail, for I'll
wager the Sheriff doesn't set much of a table."
So little, once it has changed, changes back: the world knew us: we
would never be warm again: I let go, saw winter coming toward a cold tree,
cried, cried, came apart like a rain-rotted rag. I'd wanted to since we left
the house. Mrs. County begged pardon if she'd said anything to upset me;
with her kitchen-slopped apron she wiped my face, and we laughed, had to, at
the mess it made, the paste of flour and tears, and I felt, as they say, a
lot better, kind of lighthearted. For manly reasons I understood, but which
made me feel no shame, Mr. County had been mortified by the outburst: he
retired to the front of the shop.
Mrs. County poured coffee for herself and sat down. "I don't pretend to
follow what's going on," she said. "The way I hear it. Miss Dolly broke up
housekeeping because of some disagreement with Verena?" I wanted to say the
situation was more complicated than that, but wondered, as I tried to array
events, if really it was. "Now," she continued thoughtfully, "it may sound
as though I'm talking against Dolly: I'm not But this is what I feel-you
people should go home. Dolly ought to make her peace with Verena: that's
what she's always done, and you can't turn around at her time of life. Also,
it sets a poor example for the town, two sisters quarreling, one of them
sitting in a tree; and Judge Charlie Cool, for the first time in my life I
feel sorry for those sons of his. Leading citizens have to behave
themselves; otherwise the entire place goes to pieces. For instance, have
you seen that wagon in the square? Well then, you better go have a look.
Family of cowboys, they are. Evangelists, C.C. says-all I know is there's
been a great racket over them and something to do with Dolly." Angrily she
puffed up a paper sack. "I want you to tell her what I said: go home. And
here, Collin, take along some cinnamon rolls. I know how Dolly dotes on
them."
As I left the bakery the bells of the courthouse clock were tinging
eight, which meant that it was seven-thirty. This clock has always run a
half-hour fast. Once an expert was imported to repair it; at the end of
almost a week's tinkering he recommended, as the only remedy, a stick of
dynamite; the town council voted he be paid in full, for there was a general
feeling of pride that the clock had proved so incorrigible. Around the
square a few store-keepers were preparing to open; broom-sweepings fogged
doorways, rolled trashbarrels berated the cool cat-quiet streets. At the
Early Bird, a better grocery store than Verena's Jitney Jungle, two colored
boys were fancying the window with cans of Hawaiian pineapple. On the south
side of the square, beyond the cane benches where in all seasons sit the
peaceful, perishing old men, I saw the wagon Mrs. County had spoken of-in
reality an old truck contrived with tarpaulin covering to resemble the
western wagons of history. It looked forlorn and foolish standing alone in
the empty square. A homemade sign, perhaps four feet high, crested the cab
like a shark's fin. Let Little Homer Honey Lasso Your Soul For The Lord.
Painted on the other side there was a blistered greenish grinning head
topped by a ten-gallon hat. I would not have thought it a portrait of
anything human, but, according to a notice, this was: Child Wonder Little
Homer Honey. With nothing more to see, for there was no one around the
truck, I took myself toward the jail, which is a box-shaped brick building
next door to the Ford Motor Company. I'd been inside it once. Big Eddie
Stover had taken me there, along with a dozen other boys and men; he'd
walked into the drugstore and said come over to the jail if you want to see
something. The attraction was a thin handsome gipsy boy they'd taken off a
freight train; Big Eddie gave him a quarter and told him to let down his
pants; nobody could believe the size of it, and one of the men said, "Boy,
how come they keep you locked up when you got a crowbar like that?" For
weeks you could tell girls who had heard that joke: they giggled every time
they passed the jaiL
There is an unusual emblem decorating a side wall of the jail. I asked
Dolly, and she said that in her youth she remembers it as a candy
advertisement. If so, the lettering has vanished; what remains is a chalky
tapestry: two flamingo-pink trumpeting angels swinging, swooping above a
huge horn filled with fruit like a Christmas stocking; embroidered on the
brick, it seems a faded mural, a faint tattoo, and sunshine flutters the
imprisoned angels as though they were the spirits of thieves. I knew the
risk I was taking, parading around in plain sight; but I walked past the
jail, then back, and whistled, later whispered Catherine, Catherine, hoping
this would bring her to the window. I realized which was her window: on the
sill, reflecting beyond the bars, I saw a bowl of goldfish, the one thing,
as subsequently we learned, she'd asked to have brought her. Orange
flickerings of the fish fanned around the coral castle, and I thought of the
morning I'd helped Dolly find it, the castle, the pearl pebbles. It had been
the beginning and, chilled suddenly by a thought of what the end could be,
Catherine coldly shadowed and peering downward, I prayed she would not come
to the window: she would have seen no one, for I turned and ran.
Riley kept me waiting in the car more than two hours. By the time he
showed up he was himself in such a temper I didn't dare show any of my own.
It seems he'd gone home and found his sisters, Anne and Elizabeth, and Maude
Riordan, who had spent the night, still lolling abed: not just that, but
Coca-Cola bottles and cigarette butts all over the parlor. Maude took the
blame: she confessed to having invited some boys over to listen to the radio
and dance; but it was the sisters who got punished. He'd dragged them out of
bed and whipped them. I asked what did he mean, whipped them? Turned them
over my knee, he said, and whipped them with a tennis shoe. I couldn't
picture this; it conflicted with my sense of Elizabeth's dignity. You're too
hard on those girls, I said, adding vindictively: Maude, now there's the bad
one. He took me seriously, said yes he'd intended to whip her if only
because she'd called him the kind of names he wouldn't take off anybody; but
before he could catch her she'd bolted out the back door. I thought to
myself maybe at last Maude's had her bait of you.
Riley's ragged hair was glued down with brilliantine; he smelled of
lilac water and talcum. He didn't have to tell me he'd been to the barber's;
or why.
Though he has since retired, there was in those days an exceptional
fellow running the barbershop. Amos Legrand. Men like the Sheriff, for that
matter Riley Henderson, oh everybody come to think of it, said: that old
sis. But they didn't mean any harm; most people enjoyed Amos and really
wished him well. A little monkeyman who had to stand on a box to cut your
hair, he was agitated and chattery as a pair of castanets. All his steady
customers he called honey, men and women alike, it made no difference to
him. "Honey," he'd say, "it's about time you got this hair cut: was about to
buy you a package of bobby-pins." Amos had one tremendous gift: he could
tattle along on matters of true interest to businessmen and girls of
ten-everything from what price Ben Jones got for his peanut crop to who
would be invited to Mary Simpson's birthday party.
It was natural that Riley should have gone to him to get the news. Of
course he repeated it straightforwardly; but I could imagine Amos, hear his
hummingbird whirr: "There you are, honey, that's how it turns out when you
leave money lying around. And of all people, Verena Talbo: here we thought
she trotted to the bank with every dime came her way. Twelve thousand seven
hundred dollars. But don't think it stops there. Seems Verena and this Dr.
Ritz were going into business together, that's why she bought the old
canning factory. Well get this: she gave Ritz over ten thousand to buy
machinery, mercy knows what, and now it turns out he never bought one
blessed penny's worth. Pocketed the whole thing. As for him, they've located
not hide nor hair; South America, that's where they'll find him when and if.
I never was somebody to insinuate any monkeyshines went on between him and
her; I said Verena Talbo's too particular: honey, that Jew had the worst
case of dandruff I've ever seen on a human head. But a smart woman like her,
maybe she was stuck on him. Then all this to-do with her sister, the uproar
over that. I don't wonder Doc Carter's giving her shots. But Charlie Cool's
the one kills me: what do you make of him out there catching his death?"
We cleared town on two wheels; pop, pulp, insects spit against the
windshield. The dry starched blue day whistled round us, there was not a
cloud. And yet I swear storms foretell themselves in my bones. This is a
nuisance common to old people, but fairly rare with anyone young. It's as
though a damp rumble of thunder had sounded in your joints. The way I hurt,
I felt nothing less than a hurricane could be headed our way, and said so to
Riley, who said go on, you're crazy, look at the sky. We were making a bet
about it when, rounding that bad curve so convenient to the cemetery, Riley
winced and froze his brakes; we skidded long enough for a detailed review of
our lives.
It was not Riley's fault: square in the road and struggling along like
a lame cow was the Little Homer Honey wagon. With a clatter of collapsing
machinery it came to a dead halt In a moment the driver climbed out, a
woman.
She was not young, but there was a merriness in the seesaw of her hips,
and her breasts rubbed and nudged against her peach-colored blouse in such a
coaxing way. She wore a fringed chamois skirt and knee-high cowboy boots,
which was a mistake, for you felt that her legs, if fully exposed, would
have been the best part. She leaned on the car door. Her eyelids drooped as
though the lashes weighed intolerably; with the tip of her tongue she
wettened her very red lips. "Good morning, fellows," she said, and it was a
dragging slow-fuse voice. "I'd appreciate a few directions."
"What the hell's wrong with you?" said Riley, asserting himself. "You
nearly made us turn over."
"I'm surprised you mention it," said the woman, amiably tossing her
large head; her hair, an invented apricot color, was meticulously curled,
and the curb, shaken out, were like bells with no music in them. "You were
speeding, dear," she reproved him complacently. "I imagine there's a law
against it; there are laws against everything, especially here."
Riley said, "There should be a law against that truck. A broken-down
pile like that, it oughtn't to be allowed."
"I know, dear," the woman laughed. 'Trade with you. Though I'm afraid
we couldn't all fit into this car; we're even a bit squeezed in the wagon.
Could you help me with a cigarette? That's a doll, thanks." As she lighted
the cigarette I noticed how gaunt her hands were, rough; the nails were
un-painted and one of them was black as though she'd crushed it in a door.
"I was told that out this way we'd find a Miss Talbo. Dolly Talbo. She seems
to be living in a tree. I wish you'd kindly show us where..."
Back of her there appeared to be an entire orphanage emptying out of
the truck. Babies barely able to toddle on their rickety bowlegs, towheads
dribbling ropes of snot, girls old enough to wear brassieres, and a ladder
of boys, man-sized some of them. I counted up to ten, this including a set
of crosseyed twins and a diapered baby being lugged by a child not more than
five. Still, like a magician's rabbits, they kept coming, multiplied until
the road was thickly populated.
"These all yours?" I said, really anxious; in another count I'd made a
total of fifteen. One boy, he was about twelve and had tiny steel-rimmed
glasses, flopped around in a ten-gallon hat like a walking mushroom. Most of
them wore a few cowboy items, boots, at least a rodeo scarf. But they were a
dis-couraged-looking lot, and sickly too, as though they'd lived years off
boiled potatoes and onions. They pressed around the car, ghostly quiet
except for the youngest who thumped the headlights and bounced on the
fenders.
"Sure enough, dear: all mine," she answered, swatting at a mite of a
girl playing maypole on her leg. "Sometimes I figure we've picked up one or
two that don't belong," she added with a shrug, and several of the children
smiled. They seemed to adore her. "Some of their daddies are dead; I guess
the rest are living-one way and another: either case it's no concern of
ours. I take it you weren't at our meeting last night. I'm Sister Ida,
Little Homer Honey's mother." I wanted to know which one was Little Homer.
She blinked around and singled out the spectacled boy who, wobbling up under
his hat, saluted us: "Praise Jesus. Want a whistle?" and, swelling his
cheeks, blasted a tin whistle.
"With one of those," explained his mother, tucking up her back hairs,
"you can give the devil a scare. They have a number of practical uses as
well."
"Two bits," the child bargained. He had a worried little face white as
cold cream. The hat came down to his eyebrows.
I would have bought one if I'd had the money. You could see they were
hungry. Riley felt the same, at any rate he produced fifty cents and took
two of the whistles. "Bless you," said Little Homer, slipping the coin
between his teeth and biting hard. "There's so much counterfeit going around
these days," his mother confided apologetically. "In our branch of endeavor
you wouldn't expect that kind of trouble," she said, sighing. "But if you
kindly would show us-we can't go on much more, just haven't got the gas."
Riley told her she was wasting her time. "Nobody there any more," he
said, racing the motor. Another driver, blockaded behind us, was honking his
horn.
"Not in the tree?" Her voice was plaintive above the motor's impatient
roar. "But where will we find her then?" Her hands were trying to hold back
the car. "We've important business, we..."
Riley jumped the car forward. Looking back, I saw them watching after
us in the raised and drifting road dust. I said to Riley, and was sullen
about it, that we ought to have found out what they wanted.
And he said: "Maybe I know."
He did know a great deal, Amos Legrand having informed him thoroughly
on the subject of Sister Ida. Although she'd not previously been to our
town, Amos, who does a little traveling now and then, claimed to have seen
her once at a fair in Bottle, which is a county town not far from here. Nor,
apparently, was she a stranger to the Reverend Buster who, the instant she
arrived, had hunted out the Sh&riff and der manded an injunction to prevent
the Little Homer Honey troupe from holding any meetings. Racketeers, he
called them; and argued that the so-called Sister Ida was known throughout
six states as an infamous trollop: think of it, fifteen children and no sign
of a husband! Amos, too, was pretty sure she'd never been married; but in
his opinion a woman so industrious was entitled to respect. The Sheriff said
didn't he have enough problems? and said: Maybe those fools have the right
idea, sit in a tree and mind your own business-for five cents he'd go out
there and join them. Old Buster told him in that case he wasn't fit to be
Sheriff and ought to hand in his badge. Meanwhile, Sister Ida had, without
legal interference, called an evening of prayers and shenanigans under the
oak trees in the square. Revivalists are popular in this town; it's the
music, the chance to sing and congregate in the open air. Sister Ida and her
family made a particular hit; even Amos, usually so critical, told Riley
he'd missed something: those kids really could shout, and that Little Homer
Honey, he was cute as a button dancing and twirling a rope. Everybody had a
grand time except the Reverend and Mrs. Buster, who had come to start a
fuss. What got their goat was when the children started hauling in God's
Washline, a rope with clothespins to which you could attach a contribution.
People who never dropped a dime in Buster's collection plate were hanging up
dollar bills. It was more than he could stand. So he'd skipped off to the
house on Talbo Lane and had a small shrewd talk with Verena, whose support,
he realized, was necessary if he were going to get action. According to
Amos, he'd incited Verena by telling her some hussy of a revivalist was
describing Dolly as an infidel, an enemy of Jesus, and that Verena owed it
to the Talbo name to see this woman was run out of town. It was unlikely
that at the time Sister Ida had ever heard the name Talbo. But sick as she
was, Verena went right to work; she rang up the Sheriff and said now look
here Junius, I want these tramps run clear across the county line. Those
were orders; and old Buster made it his duty to see they were carried out.
He accompanied the Sheriff to the square where Sister Ida and her brood were
cleaning up after the meeting. It had ended in a real scuffle, mainly
because Buster, charging illegal gain, had insisted on confiscating the
money gathered off God's Wash-line. He got it, too-along with a few
scratches. It made no difference that many bystanders had taken Sister Ida's
side: the Sheriff told them they'd better be out of town by noon the next
day. Now after I'd heard all this I said to Riley why, when these people had
been wrongly treated, hadn't he wanted to be more helpful? You'd never guess
the answer he gave me. In dead earnest he said a loose woman like that was
no one to associate with Dolly.
A twig fire fizzed under the tree; Riley collected leaves for it, while
the Judge, his eyes smarting with smoke, set about the business of our
midday meal. We were the indolent ones, Dolly and I. "I'm afraid," she said,
dealing a game of Rook, "really afraid Verena's seen the last of that money.
And you know, Collin, I doubt if it's losing the money that hurts her most.
For whatever reason, she trusted him: Dr. Ritz, I mean. I keep remembering
Maudie Laura Murphy. The girl who worked in the post office. She and Verena
were very close. Lord, it was a great blow when Maudie Laura took up with
that whiskey salesman, married him. I couldn't criticize her; 'twas only
fitting if she loved the man. Just the same, Maudie Laura and Dr. Ritz,
maybe those are the only two Verena ever trusted, and both of them-well, it
could take the heart out of anyone." She thumbed the Rook cards with
wandering attention. "You said something before-about Catherine."
"About her goldfish. I saw them in the window."
"But not Catherine?"
"No, the goldfish, that's all. Mrs. County was awfully nice: she said
she was going to send some dinner around to the jail."
She broke one of Mrs. County's cinnamon rolls and picked out the
raisins. "Collin, suppose we let them have their way, gave up, that is:
they'd have to let Catherine go, wouldn't they?" Her eyes tilted toward the
heights of the tree, searching, it seemed, a passage through the braided
leaves. "Should I-let myself lose?"
"Mrs. County thinks so: that we should go home."
"Did she say why?"
"Because-she did run on. Because you always have. Always made your
peace, she said."
Dolly smiled, smoothed her long skirt; sifting rays placed rings of sun
upon her fingers. "Was there ever a choice? It's what I want, a choice. To
know I could've had another life, all made of my own decisions. That would
be making my peace, and truly." She rested her eyes on the scene below,
Riley cracking twigs, the Judge hunched over a steaming pot. "And the Judge,
Charlie, if we gave up it would let him down so badly. Yes," she tangled her
fingers with mine, "he is very dear to me," and an immeasurable pause
lengthened the moment, my heart reeled, the tree closed inward like a
folding umbrella.
"This morning, while you were away, he asked me to marry him."
As if he'd heard her, the Judge straightened up, a schoolboy grin
reviving the youthfulness of his countrified face. He waved: and it was
difficult to disregard the charm of Dolly's expression as she waved back. It
was as though a familiar portrait had been cleaned and, turning to it, one
discovered a fleshy luster, clearer, till then unknown colors: whatever
else, she could never again be a shadow in the comer.
"And now-don't be unhappy, Collin," she said, scolding me, I thought,
for what she must have recognized as my resentment.
"But are you...?"
"I've never earned the privilege of making up my own mind; when I do.
God willing, I'll know what is right. Who else," she said, putting me off
further, "did you see in town?"
I would have invented someone, a story to retrieve her, for she seemed
to be moving forward into the future, while I, unable to follow, was left
with my sameness. But as I described Sister Ida, the wagon, the children,
told the wherefores of their run-in with the Sheriff and how we'd met them
on the road inquiring after the lady in the tree, we flowed together again
like a stream that for an instant an island had separated. Though it would
have been too bad if Riley had heard me betraying him, I went so far as to
repeat what he'd said about a woman of Sister Ida's sort not being fit
company for Dolly. She had a proper laugh over this; then, with sudden
soberness: "But it's wicked-taking the bread out of children's mouths and
using my name to do it. Shame on them!" She straightened her hat
determinedly. "Collin, lift yourself; you and I are going for a little walk.
I'll bet those people are right where you left them. Leastways, we'll see."
The Judge tried to prevent us, or at any rate maintained that if Dolly
wanted a stroll he would have to accompany us. It went a long way toward
mollifying my jealous rancor when Dolly told him he'd best tend to his
chores: with Collin along she'd be safe enough-it was just to stretch our
legs a bit.
As usual. Dolly could not be hurried. It was her habit, even when it
rained, to loiter along an ordinary path as though she were dallying in a
garden, her eyes primed for the sight of precious medicine flavorings, a
sprig of penny-royal, sweet-mary and mint, useful herbs whose odor scented
her clothes. She saw everything first, and it was her one real vanity to
prefer that she, rather than you, point out certain discoveries: a birdtrack
bracelet, an eave of icicles-she was always calling come see the cat-shaped
cloud, the ship in the stars, the face of frost. In this slow manner we
crossed the grass. Dolly amassing a pocketful of withered dandelions, a
pheasant's quill: I thought it would be sundown before we reached the road.
Fortunately we had not that far to go: entering the cemetery, we found
Sister Ida and all her family encamped among the graves. It was like a
lugubrious playground. The crosseyed twins were having their hair cut by
older sisters, and Little Homer was shining his boots with spit and leaves;
a nearly grown boy, sprawled with his back against a tombstone, picked
melancholy notes on a guitar. Sister Ida was suckling the baby; it lay
curled against her breasts like a pink ear. She did not rise when she
realized our presence, and Dolly said, "I do believe you're sitting on my
father."
For a fact it was Mr. Talbo's grave, and Sister Ida, addressing the
headstone (Uriah Fenwick Talbo, 1844-1922, Good Soldier, Dear Husband,
Loving Father) said, "Sorry, soldier." Buttoning her blouse, which made the
baby wail, she started to her feet.
"Please don't; I only meant-to introduce myself."
Sister Ida shrugged, "He was beginning to hurt me anyway," and rubbed
herself appropriately. "You again," she said, eyeing me with amusement.
"Where's your friend?"
"I understand..." Dolly stopped, disconcerted by the maze of children
drawing in around her; "Did you," she went on, attempting to ignore a boy no
bigger than a jackrabbit who, having raised her skirt, was sternly examining
her shanks, "wish to see me? I'm Dolly Talbo."
Shifting the baby. Sister Ida threw an arm around Dolly's waist,
embraced her, actually, and said, as though they were the oldest friends, "I
knew I could count on you. Dolly. Kids," she lifted the baby like a baton,
"tell Dolly we never said a word against her!"
The children shook their heads, mumbled, and Dolly seemed touched. "We
can't leave town, I kept telling them," said Sister Ida, and launched into
the tale of her predicament. I wished that I could have a picture of them
together. Dolly, formal, as out of fashion as her old face-veil, and Sister
Ida with her fruity lips, fun-loving figure. "It's a matter of cash; they
took it all. I ought to have them arrested, that puke-faced Buster and
what's-his-name, the Sheriff: thinks he's King Kong." She caught her breath;
her cheeks were like a raspberry patch. "The plain truth is, we're stranded.
Even if we'd ever heard of you, it's not our policy to speak ill of anyone.
Oh I know that was just the excuse; but I figured you could straighten it
out and..."
I'm hardly the person-dear me," said Dolly.
"But what would you do? with a half gallon of gas, maybe not that,
fifteen mouths and a dollar ten? We'd be better off in jail."
Then, "I have a friend," Dolly announced proudly, "a brilliant man,
he'll know an answer," and I could tell by the pleased conviction of her
voice that she believed this one hundred per cent. "Collin, you scoot ahead
and let the Judge know to expect company for dinner."
Licketysplit across the field with the grass whipping my legs: couldn't
wait to see the Judge's face. It was not a disappointment. "Lordylaw!" he
said, raring back, rocking forward; "Sixteen people," and, observing the
meager stew simmering on the fire, struck his head. For Riley's benefit I
tried to make out it was none of my doing, Dolly's meeting Sister Ida; but
he just stood there skinning me with his eyes: it could have led to bitter
words if the Judge hadn't sent us scurrying. He fanned up his fire, Riley
fetched more water, and into the stew we tossed sardines, hotdogs, green
bay-leaves, in fact whatever lay at hand, including an entire box of
Saltines which the Judge claimed would help thicken it: a few stuffs got
mixed in by mistake-coffee grounds, for instance. Having reached that
overwrought hilarious state achieved by cooks at family reunions, we had the
gall to stand back and congratulate ourselves: Riley gave me a forgiving,
comradely punch, and as the first of the children appeared the Judge scared
them with the vigor of his welcome.
None of them would advance until the whole herd had assembled.
Whereupon Dolly, apprehensive as a woman exhibiting the results of an
afternoon at an auction, brought them forward to be introduced. The children
made a rollcall of their names: Beth, Laurel, Sam, Lillie, Ida, Cleo, Kate,
Homer, Harry-here the melody broke because one small girl refused to give
her name. She said it was a secret Sister Ida agreed that if she thought it
a secret, then so it should remain.
"They're all so fretful," she said, favorably affecting the Judge with
her smoky voice and grasslike eyelashes. He prolonged their handshake and
overdid his smile, which struck me as peculiar conduct in a man who, not
three hours before, had asked a woman to marry him, and I hoped that if
Dolly noticed it would give her pause. But she was saying, "Why certain
they're fretful: hungry as they can be," and the Judge, with a hearty clap
and a boastful nod towards the stew, promised he'd fix that soon enough. In
the meantime, he thought it would be a good idea if the children went to the
creek and washed their hands. Sister Ida vowed they'd wash more than that.
They needed to, I'll tell you.
There was trouble with the little girl who wanted her name a secret;
she wouldn't go, not unless her papa rode her piggyback. "You are too my
papa," she told Riley, who did not contradict her. He lifted her onto his
shoulders, and she was tickled to death. All the way to the creek she acted
the cut-up, and when, with her hands thrust over his eyes, Riley stumbled
blindly into a bullis vine, she ripped the air with in-heaven shrieks. He
said he'd had enough of that and down you go. "Please: I'll whisper you my
name." Later on I remembered to ask him what the name had been. It was
Texaco Gasoline; because those were such pretty words.
The creek is nowhere more than knee-deep; glossy beds of moss green the
banks, and in the spring snowy dew-drops and dwarf violets flourish there
like floral crumbs for the new bees whose hives hang in the waterbays.
Sister Ida chose a place on the bank from which she could supervise the
bathing. "No cheating now-I want to see a lot of commotion." We did.
Suddenly girls old enough to be married were trotting around and not a
stitch on; boys, too, big and little all in there together naked as
jaybirds. It was as well that Dolly had stayed behind with the Judge; and I
wished Riley had not come either, for he was embarrassing in his
embarrassment. Seriously, though, it's only now, seeing the kind of man he
turned out to be, that I understand the paradox of his primness: he wanted
so to be respectable that the defections of others somehow seemed to him
backsliding on his own part.
Those famous landscapes of youth and woodland water- in after years how
often, trailing through the cold rooms of museums, I stopped before such a
picture, stood long haunted moments having it recall that gone scene, not as
it was, a band of goose-fleshed children dabbling in an autumn creek, but as
the painting presented it, husky youths and wading water-diamonded girls;
and I've wondered then, wonder now, how they fared, where they went in this
world, that extraordinary family.
"Beth, give your hair a douse. Stop splashing Laurel, I mean you Buck,
you quit that. All you kids get behind your ears, mercy knows when you'll
have the chance again." But pros' enfly Sister Ida relaxed and left the
children at liberty. "On such a day as this..." she sank against the moss;
with the full light of her eyes she looked at Riley, "There is something:
the mouth, the same jug ears-cigarette, dear?" she said, impervious to his
distaste for her. A smoothing expression suggested for a moment the girl she
had been. "On such a day as this..."
"...but in a sorrier place, no trees to speak of, a house in a
wheatfield and all alone like a scarecrow. I'm not complaining: there was
mama and papa and my sister Geraldine, and we were sufficient, had plenty of
pets and a piano and good voices every one of us. Not that it was easy, what
with all the heavy work and only the one man to do it. Papa was a sickly man
besides. Hired hands were hard to come by, nobody liked it way out there for
long: one old fellow we thought a heap of, but then he got drunk and tried
to burn down the house. Geraldine was going on sixteen, a year older than
me, and nice to look at, both of us were that, when she got it into her head
to marry a man who'd run the place with papa. But where we were there wasn't
much to choose from. Mama gave us our schooling, what of it we had, and the
closest town was ten miles. That was the town of Youfry, called after a
family; the slogan was You Won't Fry In Youfry: because it was up a mountain
and well-to-do people went there in the summer. So the summer I'm thinking
of Geraldine got waitress work at the Lookout Hotel in Youfry. I used to
hitch a ride in on Saturdays and stay the night with her. This was the first
either of us had ever been away from home. Geraldine didn't care about it
particular, town life, but as for me I looked toward those Saturdays like
each of them was Christmas and my birthday rolled into one. There was a
dancing pavilion, it didn't cost a cent, the music was free and the colored
lights. I'd help Geraldine with her work so we could go there all the
sooner; we'd run hand in hand down the street, and I used to start dancing
before I got my breath-never had to wait for a partner, there were five boys
to every girl, and we were the prettiest girls anyway. I wasn't boy-crazy
especially, it was the dancing-sometimes everyone would stand still to watch
me waltz, and I never got more than a glimpse of my partners, they changed
so fast. Boys would follow us to the hotel, then call under our window Come
out! Come out! and sing, so silly they were-Geraldine almost lost her job.
Well we'd lie awake considering the night in a practical way. She was not
romantic, my sister; what concerned her was which of our beaux was surest to
make things easier out home. It was Dan Rainey she decided on. He was older
than the others, twenty-five, a man, not handsome in the face, he had jug
ears and freckles and not much chin, but Dan Rainey, oh he was smart in his
own steady way and strong enough to lift a keg of nails. End of summer he
came out home and helped bring in the wheat. Papa liked him from the first,
and though mama said Geraldine was too young, she didn't make any ruckus
about it. I cried at the wedding, and thought it was because the nights at
the dancing pavilion were over, and because Geraldine and I would never lie
cozy in the same bed again. But as soon as Dan Rainey took over everything
seemed to go right; he brought out the best in the land and maybe the best
in us. Except when winter came on, and we'd be sitting round the fire,
sometimes the heat, something made me feel just faint. I'd go stand in the
yard with only my dress on, it was like I couldn't feel the cold because I'd
become a piece of it, and I'd close my eyes, waltz round and round, and one
night, I didn't hear him sneaking up, Dan Rainey caught me in his arms and
danced me for a joke. Only it wasn't such a joke. He had feelings for me;
way back in my head I'd known it from the start. But he didn't say it, and I
never asked him to; and it wouldn't have come to anything provided Geraldine
hadn't lost her baby. That was in the spring. She was mortally afraid of
snakes, Geraldine, and it was seeing one that did it; she was collecting
eggs, it was only a chicken snake, but it scared her so bad she dropped her
baby four months too soon. I don't know what happened to her-got cross and
mean, got where she'd fly out about anything. Dan Rainey took the worst of
it; he kept out of her way as much as he could; used to roll himself in a
blanket and sleep down in the wheatfield. I knew if I stayed there-so I went
to Youfry and got Geraldine's old job at the hotel. The dancing pavilion, it
was the same as the summer before, and I was even prettier: one boy nearly
killed another over who was going to buy me an orangeade. I can't say I
didn't enjoy myself, but my mind wasn't on it; at the hotel they asked where
was my mind-always filling the sugar bowl with salt, giving people spoons to
cut their meat. I never went home the whole summer. When the time came-it
was such a day as this, a fall day blue as eternity-I didn't let them know I
was coming, just got out of the coach and walked three miles through the
wheat stacks till I found Dan Rainey. He didn't speak a word, only plopped
down and cried like a baby. I was that sorry for him, and loved him more
than tongue can tell."
Her cigarette had gone out. She seemed to have lost track of the story;
or worse, thought better of finishing it. I wanted to stamp and whistle, the
way rowdies do at the picture-show when the screen goes unexpectedly blank;
and Riley, though less bald about it, was impatient too. He struck a match
for her cigarette: starting at the sound, she remembered her voice again,
but it was as if, in the interval, she'd traveled far ahead.
"So papa swore he'd shoot him. A hundred times Geraldine said tell us
who it was and Dan here'll take a gun after him. I laughed till I cried;
sometimes the other way round. I said well I had no idea; there were five or
six boys in Youfry could be the one, and how was I to know? Mama slapped my
face when I said that. But they believed it; even after a while I think Dan
Rainey believed it-wanted to anyway, poor unhappy fellow. All those months
not stirring out of the house; and in the middle of it papa died. They
wouldn't let me go to the funeral, they were so ashamed for anyone to see.
It happened this day, with them off at the burial and me alone in the house
and a sandy wind blowing rough as an elephant, that I got in touch with God.
I didn't by any means deserve to be Chosen: up till then, mama'd had to coax
me to leam my Bible verses; afterwards, I memorized over a thousand in less
than three months. Well I was practicing a tune on the piano, and suddenly a
window broke, the whole room turned topsy-turvy, then fell together again,
and someone was with me, papa's spirit I thought; but the wind died down
peaceful as spring-He was there, and standing as He made me, straight, I
opened my arms to welcome Him. That was twenty-six years ago last February
the third; I was sixteen, I'm forty-two now, and I've never wavered. When I
had my baby I didn't call Geraldine or Dan Rainey or anybody, only lay there
whispering my verses one after the other and not a soul knew Danny was born
till they heard him holler. It was Geraldine named him that. He was hers,
everyone thought so, and people round the countryside rode over to see her
new baby, brought presents, some of them, and the men hit Dan Rainey on the
back and told him what a fine son he had. Soon as I was able I moved thirty
miles away to Stoneville, that's a town double the size of Youfry and where
they have a big mining camp. Another girl and I, we started a laundry, and
did a good business on account of in a mining town there's mostly bachelors.
About twice a month I went home to see Danny; I was seven years going back
and forth; it was the only pleasure I had, and a strange one, considering
how it tore me up every time: such a beautiful boy, there's no describing.
But Geraldine died for me to touch him: if I kissed him she'd come near to
jumping out of her skin; Dan Rainey wasn't much different, he was so scared
I wouldn't leave well enough alone. The last time I ever was home I asked
him would he meet me in Youfry. Because for a crazy long while I'd had an
idea, which was: if I could live it again, if I could bear a child that
would be a twin to Danny. But I was wrong to think it could have the same
father. It would've been a dead child, bom dead: I looked at Dan Rainey (it
was the coldest day, we sat by the empty dancing pavilion, I remember he
never took his hands out of his pockets) and sent him away without saying
why it was I'd asked him to come. Then years spent hunting the likeness of
him. One of the miners in Stoneville, he had the same freckles, yellow eyes;
a goodhearted boy, he obliged me with Sam, my oldest. As best I recall,
Beth's father was a dead ringer for Dan Rainey; but being a girl, Beth
didn't favor Danny. I forget to tell you that I'd sold my share of the
laundry and gone to Texas-had restaurant work in Amarillo and Dallas. But it
wasn't until I met Mr. Honey that I saw why the Lord had chosen me and what
my task was to be. Mr. Honey possessed the True Word; after I heard him
preach that first time I went round to see him: we hadn't talked twenty
minutes than he said I'm going to marry you provided you're not married
a'ready. I said no I'm not married, but I've got some family? fact is, there
was five by then. Didn't faze him a bit We got married a week later on
Valentine's Day. He wasn't a young man, and he didn't look a particle like
Dan Rainey; stripped of his boots he couldn't make it to my shoulder; but
when the Lord brought us together He knew certain what He was doing: we had
Roy, then Pearl and Kate and Cleo and Little Homer -most of them born in
that wagon you saw up there. We traveled all over the country carrying His
Word to folks who'd never heard it before, not the way my man could tell it.
Now I must mention a sad circumstance, which is: I lost Mr. Honey. One
morning, this was in a queer part of Louisiana, Cajun parts, he walked off
down the road to buy some groceries: you know we never saw him again. He
disappeared right into thin air. I don't give a hoot what the police say; he
wasn't the kind to run out on his family; no sir it was foul play."
"Or amnesia," I said. "You forget everything, even your own name."
"A man with the whole Bible on the tip of his tongue- would you say he
was liable to forget something like his name? One of them Cajuns murdered
him for his amethyst ring. Naturally I've known men since then; but not
love. Lillie Ida, Laurel, the other kids, they happened like. Seems somehow
I can't get on without another life kicking under my heart: feel so sluggish
otherwise."
When the children were dressed, some with their clothes inside out, we
returned to the tree where the older girls, bending over the fire, dried and
combed their hair. In our absence Dolly had cared for the baby; she seemed
now not to want to give it back: "I wish one of us had had a baby, my sister
or Catherine," and Sister Ida said yes, it was entertaining and a
satisfaction too. We sat finally in a circle around the fire. The stew was
too hot to taste, which perhaps accounted for its thorough success, and the
Judge, who had to serve it in rotation, for there were only three cups, was
full of gay stunts and nonsense that exhilarated the children: Texaco
Gasoline decided she'd made a mistake-the Judge, not Riley, was her papa,
and the Judge rewarded her with a trip to the moon, swung her, that is, high
over his head: Some flocked south, Some flocked west. You go flying after
the rest. Away! Awheel Sister Ida said say you're pretty strong. Of course
he lapped it up, all but asked her to feel his muscles. Every quarter-minute
he peeked to see if Dolly were admiring him. She was.
The croonings of a ringdove wavered among the long last lances of
sunlight. Chill green, blues filtered through the air as though a rainbow
had dissolved around us. Dolly shivered: "There's a storm nearby. I've had
the notion all day." I looked at Riley triumphantly: hadn't I told him?
"And it's getting late," said Sister Ida. "Buck, Homer- you boys chase
up to the wagon. Gracious knows who's come along and helped themselves.
Not," she added, watching her sons vanish on the darkening path, "that
there's a whole lot to take, nothing much except my sewing machine. So,
Dolly? Have you..."
"We've discussed it," said Dolly turning to the Judge for confirmation.
"You'd win your case in court, no question of it," he said, very
professional. "For once the law would be on the right ride. As matters
stand, however..."
Dolly said, "As matters stand," and pressed into Sister Ida's hand the
forty-seven dollars which constituted our cash asset; in addition, she gave
her the Judge's big gold watch. Contemplating these gifts. Sister Ida shook
her head as though she should refuse them. "It's wrong. But I thank you."
A light thunder rolled through the woods, and in the perilous quiet of
its wake Buck and Little Homer burst upon the path like charging cavalry.
"They're coming! They're coming!" both got out at once, and Little Homer,
pushing back his hat, gasped: "We ran all the way."
"Make sense, boy: who?"
Little Homer swallowed. "Those fellows. The Sheriff one, and r don't
know how many more. Coming down through the grass. With guns, too."
Thunder rumbled again; tricks of wind rustled our fire.
"All right now," said the Judge, assuming command. "Everybody keep
their heads." It was as though he'd planned for this moment, and he rose to
it, I do concede, gloriously. "The women, you little kids, get up in the
treehouse. Riley, see that the rest of you scatter out, shinny up those
other trees and take a load of rocks." When we'd followed these directions,
he alone remained on the ground; firm-jawed, he stayed there guarding the
tense twilighted silence like a captain who will not abandon bis drowning
ship.
Five of us roosted in the sycamore tree that overhung the path. Little
Homer was there, and his brother Buck, a scowling boy with rocks in either
hand. Across the way, straddling the limbs of a second sycamore, we could
see Riley surrounded by the older girls: in (he deepening burnished light
their white faces glimmered like candle-lanterns. I thought I felt a rain
drop: it was a bead of sweat slipping along my cheek; still, and though the
thunder lulled, a smell of rain intensified the odor of leaves and
woodsmoke. The overloaded tree-house gave an evil creak; from my vantage
point, its tenants seemed a single creature, a many-legged, many-eyed spider
upon whose head Dolly's hat sat perched like a velvet crown.
In our tree everybody pulled out the kind of tin whistles Riley had
bought from Little Homer: good to give the devil a scare. Sister Ida had
said. Then Little Homer took off his huge hat and, removing from its vast
interior what was perhaps God's Washline, a thick long rope, at any rate,
proceeded to make a sliding noose. As he tested its efficiency, stretched
and tightened the knot, his steely miniature spectacles cast such a menacing
sparkle that, edging away, I put the distance of another branch between us.
The Judge, patrolling below, hissed to stop moving around up there; it was
his last order before the invasion began.
The invaders themselves made no pretense at stealth. Swinging their
rifles against the undergrowth like canecutters, they swaggered up the path,
nine, twelve, twenty strong. First, Junius Candle, his Sheriff's star
winking in the dusk; and after him, Big Eddie Stover, whose squint-eyed
search of our hiding places reminded me of those newspaper picture puzzles;
find five boys and an owl in this drawing of a tree. It requires someone
cleverer than Big Eddie Stover. He looked straight at me, and through me.
Not many of that gang would have troubled you with their braininess: good
for nothing but a lick of salt and swallow of beer most of them. Except I
recognized Mr. Hand, the principal at school, a decent enough fellow taken
all around, no one, you would have thought, to involve himself in such
shabby company on so shameful an errand. Curiosity explained the attendance
of Amos Legrand; he was there, and silent for once: no wonder: as though he
were a walking-stick, Verena was leaning a hand on his head, which came not
quite to her hip. A grim Reverend Buster ceremoniously supported her other
arm. When I saw Verena I felt a numbed reliving of the terror I'd known
when, after my mother's death, she'd come to our house to claim me. Despite
what seemed a lameness, she moved with her customary tall authority and,
accompanied by her escorts, stopped under our sycamore.
The Judge didn't give an inch; toe to toe with the Sheriff, he stood
his ground as if there were a drawn line he dared the other to cross.
It was at this crucial moment that I noticed Little Homer. He gradually
was lowering his lasso. It crawled, dangled like a snake, the wide noose
open as a pair of jaws, then fell, with an expert snap, around the neck of
the Reverend Buster, whose strangling outcry Little Homer stifled by giving
the rope a mighty tug.
His friends hadn't long to consider old Buster's predicament, his
blood-gorged face and flailing arms; for Little Homer's success inspired an
all-out attack: rocks flew, whistles shrilled like the shriekings of savage
birds, and the men, pummeling each other in the general rout, took refuge
where they could, principally under the bodies of comrades already fallen.
Verena had to box Amos Legrand's ears: he tried to sneak up under her skirt.
She alone, you might say, behaved like a real man: shook her fists at the
trees and cursed us blue.
At the height of the din, a shot slammed like an iron door. It quelled
us all, the serious endless echo of it; but in the hush that followed we
heard a weight come crashing through the opposite sycamore.
It was Riley, falling; and falling: slowly, relaxed as a killed cat.
Covering their eyes, the girls screamed as he struck a branch and splintered
it, hovered, like the torn leaves, then in a bleeding heap hit the ground.
No one moved toward him.
Until at last the Judge said, "Boy, my boy," and in a trance sank to
his knees; he caressed Riley's limp hands. "Have mercy. Have mercy, son:
answer." Other men, sheepish and frightened, closed round; some offered
advice which the Judge seemed unable to comprehend. One by one we dropped
down from the trees, and the children's gathering whisper is he dead? is he
dead? was like the moan, the delicate roar of a sea-trumpet Doffing their
hats respectfully, the men made an aisle for Dolly; she was too stunned to
take account of them, or of Verena, whom she passed without seeing.
"I want to know," said Verena, in tones that summoned attention,
"...which of you fools fired that gun?"
The men guardedly looked each other over: too many of them fixed on Big
Eddie Stover. His jowls trembled, he licked his lips: "Hell, I never meant
to shoot nobody; was doing my duty, that's all."
"Not all," Verena severely replied. "I hold you responsible, Mr.
Stover."
At this Dolly turned round; her eyes, vague beyond the veiling, seemed
to frame Verena in a gaze that excluded everyone else. "Responsible? No one
is that; except ourselves."
Sister Ida had replaced the Judge at Riley's side; she completely
stripped off his shirt. "Thank your stars, it's his shoulder," she said, and
the relieved sighs. Big Eddie's alone, would have floated a kite. "He's
fairly knocked out, though. Some of you fellows better get him to a doctor."
She stopped Riley's bleeding with a bandage torn off his shirt. The Sheriff
and three of his men locked arms, making a litter on which to carry him. He
was not the only one who had to be carried; the Reverend Buster had also
come to considerable grief: loose-limbed as a puppet, and too weak to know
the noose still hung around his neck, he needed several assistants to get up
the path. Little Homer chased after him: "Hey, hand me back my rope!"
Amos Legrand waited to accompany Verena; she told him to go without her
as she had no intention of leaving unless Dolty-hesitating, she looked at
the rest of us, Sister Ida in particular; "I would like to speak with my
sister alone."
With a wave of her hand that quite dismissed Verena, Sister Ida said,
"Never mind, lady. We're on our way." She hugged Dolly. "Bless us, we love
you. Don't we, kids?" Little Homer said, "Come with us. Dolly. We'll have
such good times. I'll give you my sparkle belt." And Texaco Gasoline threw
herself upon the Judge, pleading for him to go with them, too. Nobody seemed
to want me.
"I'll always remember that you asked me," said Dolly, her eyes hurrying
as though to memorize the children's faces. "Good luck. Good-bye. Run now,"
she raised her voice above new and nearer thunder, "run, it's raining."
It was a tickling feathery rain fine as a gauze curtain, and as they
faded into the folds of it. Sister Ida and her family, Verena said: "Do I
understand you've been conniving with that-woman? After she made a mockery
of our name?"
"I don't think you can accuse me of conniving with anyone," Dolly
answered serenely. "Especially not with bullies who," she a little lost
control, "steal from children and drag old women into jail. I can't set much
store by a name that endorses such methods. It ought to be a mockery."
Verena received this without flinching. "You're not yourself," she
said, as if it were a clinical opinion.
"You'd best look again: I am myself." Dolly seemed to pose for
inspection. She was as tall as Verena, as assured; nothing about her was
incomplete or blurred. "I've taken your advice: stopped hanging my head, I
mean. You told me it made you dizzy. And not many days ago," she continued,
"you told me that you were ashamed of me. Of Catherine. So much of our lives
had been lived for you; it was painful to realize the waste that had been.
Can you know what it is, such a feeling of waste?"
Scarcely audible, Verena said, "I do know," and it was as if her eyes
crossed, peered inward upon a stony vista. It was the expression I'd seen
when, spying from the attic, I'd watched her late at night brooding over the
Kodak pictures of Maudie Laura Murphy, Maudie Laura's husband and children.
She swayed, she put a hand on my shoulder; except for that, I think she
might have fallen.
"I imagined I would go to my dying day with the hurt of it. I won't.
But it's no satisfaction, Verena, to say that I'm ashamed of you, too."
It was night now; frogs, sawing infects celebrated the slow-falling
rain. We dimmed as though the wetness had snuffed the light of our faces.
Verena sagged against me. "I'm not well," she said in a skeleton voice. "I'm
a sick woman, I am. Dolly."
Somewhat unconvinced. Dolly approached Verena, presently touched her,
as though her fingers could sense the truth. "Collin," she said, "Judge,
please help me with her into the tree." Verena protested that she couldn't
go climbing trees; but once she got used to the idea she went up easily
enough. The raftlike tree-house seemed to be floating over shrouded Vaporish
waters; it was dry there, however, for the mild rain had not penetrated the
parasol of leaves. We drifted in a current of silence until Verena said, "I
have something to say, Dolly. I could say it more easily if we were alone."
The Judge crossed his arms. "I'm afraid you'll have to put up with me.
Miss Verena." He was emphatic, though not belligerent "I have an interest in
the outcome of what you might have to say."
"I doubt that: how so?" she said, recovering to a degree her exalted
manner.
He lighted a stub of candle, and our sudden shadows stooped over us
like four eavesdroppers. "I don't like talking in the dark," he said. There
was a purpose in the proud erectness of his posture: it was, I thought, to
let Verena know she was dealing with a man, a fact too few men in her
experience had enough believed to assert. She found it unforgivable. "You
don't remember, do you, Charlie Cool? Fifty years ago, more maybe. Some of
you boys came blackberry stealing out at our place. My father caught your
cousin Seth, and I caught you. It was quite a licking you got that day."
The Judge did remember; he blushed, smiled, said: "You didn't fight
fair, Verena."
"I fought fair," she told him drily. "But you're right-since neither of
us like it, let's not talk in the dark. Frankly, Charlie, you're not a
welcome sight to me. My sister couldn't have gone through such tommyrot if
you hadn't been goading her on. So I'll thank you to leave us; it can be no
further affair of yours."
"But it is," said Dolly. "Because Judge Cool, Charlie..." she dwindled,
appeared for the first time to question her boldness.
"Dolly means that I have asked her to marry me."
"That," Verena managed after some suspenseful seconds, "is," she said,
regarding her gloved hands, "remarkable. Very. I wouldn't have credited
either of you with so much imagination. Or is it that I am imagining? Quite
likely I'm dreaming of myself in a wet tree on a thundery night. Except I
never have dreams, or perhaps I only forget them. This one I suggest we all
forget."
"I'll own up: I think it is a dream. Miss Verena. But a man who doesn't
dream is like a man who doesn't sweat: he stores up a lot of poison."
She ignored him; her attention was with Dolly, Dolly's with her: they
might have been alone together, two persons at far ends of a bleak room,
mutes communicating in an eccentric sign-language, subtle shifting of the
eye; and it was as though, then. Dolly gave an answer, one that sapped all
color from Verena's face. "I see. You've accepted him, have you?"
The rain had thickened, fish could have swum through the air; like a
deepening scale of piano notes, it struck its blackest chord, and drummed
into a downpour that, though it threatened, did not at once reach us:
drippings leaked through the leaves, but the tree-house stayed a dry seed in
a soaking plant. The Judge put a protective hand over the candle; he waited
as anxiously as Verena for Dolly's reply. My impatience equaled theirs, yet
I felt exiled from the scene, again a spy peering from the attic, and my
sympathies, curiously, were nowhere; or rather, everywhere: a tenderness for
all three ran together like raindrops, I could not separate them, they
expanded into a human oneness.
Dolly, too. She could not separate the Judge from Verena. At last,
excruciatingly, "I can't," she cried, implying failures beyond calculation.
"I said I would know what was right. But it hasn't happened; I don't know:
do other people? A choice, I thought: to have had a life made of my own
decisions..."
"But we have had our lives," said Verena. "Yours has been nothing to
despise, I don't think you've required more than you've had; I've envied you
always. Come home. Dolly. Leave decisions to me: that, you see, has been my
life."
"Is it true, Charlie?" Dolly asked, as a child might ask where do
falling stars fall? and: "Have we had our lives?"
"We're not dead," he told her; but it was as if, to the questioning
child, he'd said stars fall into space: an irrefutable, still unsatisfactory
answer. Dolly could not accept it: "You don't have to be dead. At home, in
the kitchen, there is a geranium that blooms over and over. Some plants,
though, they bloom just the once, if at all, and nothing more happens to
them. They live, but they've had their life."
"Not you," he said, and brought his face nearer hers, as though he
meant their lips to touch, yet wavered, not daring it. Rain had tunneled
through the branches, it fell full weight; rivulets of it streamed off
Dolly's hat, the veiling clung to her cheeks; with a flutter the candle
failed. "Not me."
Successive strokes of lightning throbbed like veins of fire, and
Verena, illuminated in that sustained glare, was not anyone I knew; but some
woman woebegone, wasted-with eyes once more drawn toward each other, their
stare settled on an inner territory, a withered country; as the lightning
lessened, as the hum of rain sealed us in its multiple sounds, she spoke,
and her voice came so weakly from so very far, not expecting, it seemed, to
be heard at all. "Envied you. Dolly. Your pink room. I've only knocked at
the doors of such rooms, not often Х-enough to know that now there is no one
but you to let me in. Because little Morris, little Morris-help me, I loved
him, I did. Not in a womanly way; it was, oh I admit it, that we were
kindred spirits. We looked each other in the eye, we saw the same devil, we
weren't afraid; it was-merry. But he outsmarted me; I'd known he could, and
hoped he wouldn't, and he did, and now: it's too long to be alone, a
lifetime. I walk through the house, nothing is mine: your pink room, your
kitchen, the house is yours, and Catherine's too, I think. Only don't leave
me, let me live with you. I'm feeling old, I want my sister."
The rain, adding its voice to Verena's, was between them, Dolly and the
Judge, a transparent wall through which he could watch her losing substance,
recede before him as earlier she had seemed to recede before me. More than
that, it was as if the tree-house were dissolving. Lunging wind cast
overboard the soggy wreckage of our Rook cards, our wrapping papers; animal
crackers crumbled, the rain-filled mason jars spilled over like fountains;
and Catherine's beautiful scrapquilt was ruined, a puddle. It was going:
like the doomed houses rivers in flood float away; and it was as though the
Judge were trapped there-waving to us as we, the survivors, stood ashore.
For Dolly had said, "Forgive me; I want my sister, too," and the Judge could
not reach her, not with his arms, not with his heart: Verena's claim was too
final.
Somewhere near midnight the rain slackened, halted; wind barreled about
wringing out the trees. Singly, like delayed guests arriving at a dance,
appearing stars pierced the sky. It was time to leave. We took nothing with
us: left the quilt to rot, spoons to rust; and the tree-house, the woods we
left to winter.
For quite a while it was Catherine's custom to date events as having
occurred before or after her incarceration. "Prior," she would begin, "to
the time That One made a jailbird of me." As for the rest of us, we could
have divided history along similar lines; that is, in terms of before and
after the tree-house. Those few autumn days were a monument and a signpost.
Except to collect his belongings, the Judge never again entered the
house he'd shared with his sons and their wives, a circumstance that must
have suited them, at least they made no protest when he took a room at Miss
Bell's boarding house. This was a brown solemn establishment which lately
has been turned into a funeral home by an undertaker who saw that to effect
the correct atmosphere a minimum of renovation would be necessary. I
disliked going past it, for Miss Bell's guests, ladies thorny as the
blighted rosebushes littering the yard, occupied the porch in a dawn-to-dark
marathon of vigilance. One of them, the twice-widowed Mamie Canfield,
specialized in spotting pregnancies (some legendary fellow is supposed to
have told his wife Why waste money on a doctor? just trot yourself past Miss
Bell's: Mamie Canfield, shell let the world know soon enough whether you is
or ain't). Until the Judge moved there, Amos Legrand was the only man in
residence at Miss Bell's. He was a godsend to the other tenants: the moments
most sacred to them were when, after supper, Amos swung in the seat-swing
with his little legs not touching the floor and his tongue trilling like an
alarm-clock. They vied with each other in knitting him socks and sweaters,
tending to his diet: at table all the best things were saved for his plate-
Miss Bell had trouble keeping a cook because the ladies were forever poking
around in the kitchen wanting to make a delicacy that would tempt their pet.
Probably they would have done the same for the Judge, but he had no use for
them, never, so they complained, stopped to pass the time of day.
The last drenching night in the tree-house had left me with a bad cold,
Verena with a worse one; and we had a sneezing nurse. Dolly. Catherine
wouldn't help: "Dollyheart, you can do like you please-tote That One's
slopjar till you drop in your tracks. Only don't count on me to lift a
finger. I've put down the load."
Rising at all hours of the night. Dolly brought the syrups that eased
our throats, stoked the fires that kept us warm. Verena did not, as in other
days, accept such attention simply as her due. "In the spring," she promised
Dolly, "we'll make a trip together. We might go to the Grand Canyon and call
on Maudie Laura. Or Florida: you've never seen the ocean." But Dolly was
where she wanted to be, she had no wish to travel: "I wouldn't enjoy it,
seeing the things I've known shamed by nobler sights."
Doctor Carter called regularly to see us, and one morning Dolly asked
would he mind taking her temperature; she felt so flushed and weak in the
legs. He put her straight to bed, and she thought it was very humorous when
he told her she had walking pneumonia. "Walking pneumonia," she said to the
Judge, who had come to visit her, "it must be something new, I've never
heard of it. But I do feel as though I were skylarking along on a pair of
stilts. Lovely," she said and fell asleep.
For three, nearly four days she never really woke up. Catherine stayed
with her, dozing upright in a wicker chair and growling low whenever Verena
or I tiptoed into the room. She persisted in fanning Dolly with a picture of
Jesus, as though it were summertime; and it was a disgrace how she ignored
Doctor Carter's instructions: "I wouldn't feed that to a hog," she'd
declare, pointing to some medicine he'd sent around. Finally Doctor Carter
said he wouldn't be responsible unless the patient were removed to a
hospital. The nearest hospital was in Brewton, sixty miles away. Verena sent
over there for an ambulance. She could have saved herself the expense,
because Catherine locked Dolly's door from the inside and said the first one
to rattle the knob would need an ambulance themselves. Dolly did not know
where they wanted to take her; wherever it was, she begged not to go: "Don't
wake me," she said, "I don't want to see the ocean."
Toward the end of the week she could sit up in bed; a few days later
she was strong enough to resume correspondence with her dropsy-cure
customers. She was worried by the unfilled orders that had piled up; but
Catherine, who took the credit for Dolly's improvement, said, "Shoot, it's
no time we'll be out there boiling a brew."
Every afternoon, promptly at four, the Judge presented himself at the
garden gate and whistled for me to let him in; by using the garden gate,
rather than the front door, he lessened the chance of encountering
Verena-not that she objected to his coming: indeed, she wisely supplied for
his visits a bottle of sherry and a box of cigars. Usually he brought Dolly
a gift, cakes from the Katydid Bakery or flowers, bronze bal-loonlike
chrysanthemums which Catherine swiftly confiscated on the theory that they
ate up all the nourishment in the air. Catherine never learned he had
proposed to Dolly; still, intuiting a situation not quite to her liking, she
sharply chaperoned the Judge's visits and, while swigging at the sherry that
had been put out for him, did most of the talking as well. But I suspect
that neither he nor Dolly had much to say of a private nature; they accepted
each other without excitement, as people do who are settled in their
affections. If in other ways he was a disappointed man, it was not because
of Dolly, for I believe she became what he'd wanted, the one person in the
world-to whom, as he'd described it, everything can be said. But when
everything can be said perhaps there is nothing more to say. He sat beside
her bed, content to be there and not expecting to be entertained. Often,
drowsy with fever, she went to sleep, and if, while she slept, she whimpered
or frowned, he wakened her, welcoming her back with a daylight smile.
In the past Verena had not allowed us to have a radio; cheap melodies,
she contended, disordered the mind; moreover, there was the expense to
consider. It was Doctor Carter who persuaded her that Dolly should have a
radio; he thought it would help reconcile her to what he foresaw as a long
convalescence. Verena bought one, and paid a good price, I don't doubt; but
it was an ugly hood-shaped box crudely varnished. I took it out in the yard
and painted it pink. Even so Dolly wasn't certain she wanted it in her room;
later on, you couldn't have pried it away from her. That radio was always
hot enough to hatch a chicken, she and Catherine played it so much. They
favored broadcasts of football games. "Please don't," Dolly admonished the
Judge when he attempted to explain the rules of this game. "I like a
mystery. Everybody shouting, having such a fine time: it might not sound so
large and happy if I knew why." Primarily the Judge was peeved because he
couldn't get Dolly to root for any one team. She thought both sides should
win: "They're all nice boys, I'm sure."
Because of the radio Catherine and I had words one afternoon. It was
the afternoon Maude Riordan was playing in a broadcast of the state musical
competition. Naturally I wanted to hear her, Catherine knew that, but she
was tuned in on a Tulane-Georgia Tech game and wouldn't let me near the
radio. I said, "What's come over you, Catherine? Selfish, dissatisfied,
always got to have your own way, why you're worse than Verena ever was." It
was as though, in lieu of prestige lost through her encounter with the law,
she'd had to double her power in the Talbo house: we at least would have to
respect her Indian blood, accept her tyranny. Dolly was willing; in the
matter of Maude Riordan, however, she sided with me: "Let Collin find his
station. It wouldn't be Christian not to listen to Maude. She's a friend of
ours."
Everyone who heard Maude agreed that she should've won first prize. She
placed second, which pleased her family, for it meant a half-scholarship in
music at the University. Still it wasn't fair, because she performed
beautifully, much better than the boy who won the larger prize. She played
her father's serenade, and it seemed to me as pretty as it had that day in
the woods. Since that day I'd wasted hours scribbling her name, describing
in my head her charms, her hair the color of vanilla ice cream. The Judge
arrived in time to hear the broadcast, and I know Dolly was glad because it
was as if we were reunited again in the leaves with music like butterflies
flying.
Some days afterwards I met Elizabeth Henderson on the street. She'd
been at the beauty parlor, for her hair was finger-waved, her nails tinted,
she did look grown-up and I complimented her. "It's for the party. I hope
your costume is ready." Then I remembered: the Halloween party to which she
and Maude had asked me to contribute my services as a fortuneteller. "You
can't have forgotten? Oh, Collin," she said, "we've worked like dogs! Mrs.
Riordan is making a wine punch. I shouldn't be surprised if there's
drunkenness and everything. And after all it's a celebration for Maude,
because she won the prize, and because," Elizabeth glanced along the street,
a glum perspective of silent houses and telephone poles, "she'll be going
away-to the University, you know." A loneliness fell around us, we did not
want to go our separate ways: I offered to walk her home.
On our way we stopped by the Katydid where Elizabeth placed an order
for a Halloween cake, and Mrs. C. C. County, her apron glittering with sugar
crystals, appeared from the oven room to inquire after Dolly's condition.
"Doing well as can be expected I suppose," she lamented. "Imagine it,
walking pneumonia. My sister, now she had the ordinary lying-down kind.
Well, we can be thankful Dolly's in her own bed; it eases my mind to know
you people are home again. Ha ha, guess we can laugh about all that
foolishness now. Look here, I've Just pulled out a pan of doughnuts; you
take them to Dolly with my blessings." Elizabeth and I ate most of those
doughnuts before we reached her house. She invited me in to have a glass of
milk and finish them off.
Today there is a filling station where the Henderson house used to be.
It was some fifteen draughty rooms casually nailed together, a place stray
animals would have claimed if Riley had not been a gifted carpenter. He had
an outdoor shed, a combination of workshop and sanctuary, where he spent his
mornings sawing lumber, shaving shingles. Its wall-shelves sagged with the
relics of outgrown bobbies: snakes, bees, spiders preserved in alcohol, a
bat decaying in a bottle; ship models. A boyhood enthusiasm for taxidermy
had resulted in a pitiful zoo of nasty-odored beasts: an eyeless rabbit with
maggot-green fur and ears that drooped like a bloodhound's -objects better
off buried, I'd been lately to see Riley several times; Big Eddie Stover's
bullet had shattered his shoulder, and the curse of it was he had to wear an
itching plaster cast which weighed, he said, a hundred pounds. Since he
couldn't drive his car, or hammer a proper nail, there wasn't much for him
to do except loaf around and brood.
"If you want to see Riley," said Elizabeth, "you'll find him out in the
shed. I expect Maude's with him."
"Maude Riordan?" I had reason to be surprised, because on the occasions
I'd visited Riley he'd made a point of our sitting in the shed; the girls
wouldn't bother us there, for it was, he'd boasted, one threshold no female
was permitted to cross.
"Reading to him. Poetry, plays. Maude's been absolutely adorable. And
it's not as though my brother had ever treated her with common human
decency. But she's let bygones be bygones. I guess coming so near to being
killed the way he was, I guess that would change a person-make them more
receptive to the finer things. He lets her read to him by the hour."
The shed, shaded by fig trees, was in the back yard. Matronly Plymouth
hens waddled about its doorstep picking at the seeds of last summer's fallen
sunflowers. On the door a childhood word in faded whitewash feebly warned
Bewarel It aroused a shyness in me. Beyond the door I could hear Maude's
voice-her poetry voice, a swooning chant certain louts in school had dearly
loved to mimic. Anyone who'd been told Riley Henderson had come to this,
they'd have said that fall from the sycamore had affected his head. Stealing
over to the shed's window, I got a look at him: he was absorbed in sorting
the insides of a clock and, to judge from his face, might have been
listening to nothing more uplifting than the hum of a fly; he jiggled a
finger in his ear, as though to relieve an irritation. Then, at the moment
I'd decided to startle them by rapping on the window, he put aside his
clockworks and, coming round behind Maude, reached down and shut the book
from which she was reading. With a grin he gathered in his hand twists of
her hair-she rose like a kitten lifted by the nape of its neck. It was as
though they were edged with light, some brilliance that smarted my eyes. You
could see it wasn't the first time they'd kissed.
Not one week before, because of his experience in such matters, I'd
taken Riley into my confidence, confessed to him my feelings for Maude:
please look. I wished I were a giant so that I could grab hold of that shed
and shake it to a splinter; knock down the door and denounce them both.
Yet-of what could I accuse Maude? Regardless of how bad she'd talked about
him I'd always known she was heartset on Riley. It wasn't as if there had
ever been an understanding between the two of us; at the most we'd been good
friends: for the last few years, not even that. As I walked back through the
yard the pompous Plymouth hens cackled after me tauntingly.
Elizabeth said, "You didn't stay long. Or weren't they there?"
I told her it hadn't seemed right to interrupt. "They were getting on
so well with the finer things."
But sarcasm never touched Elizabeth: she was, despite the subtleties
her soulful appearance promised, too literal a person. "Wonderful, isn't
it?"
"Wonderful."
"Collin-for heaven's sake: what are you sniveling about?"
"Nothing. I mean, I've got & cold."
"Well I hope it doesn't keep you away from the party. Only you must
have a costume. Riley's coming as the devil."
"That's appropriate."
"Of course we want you in a skeleton suit. I know there's only a day
left..."
I had no intention of going to the party. As soon as I got home I sat
down to write Riley a letter. Dear Riley... Dear Henderson. I crossed out
the dear; plain Henderson would do. Henderson, your treachery has not gone
unobserved. Pages were filled with recording the origins of our friendship,
its honorable history; and gradually a feeling grew that there must be a
mistake: such a splendid friend would not have wronged me. Until, toward the
end, I found myself deliriously telling him he was my best friend, my
brother. So I threw these ravings in a fireplace and five minutes later was
in Dolly's room asking what were the chances of my having a skeleton suit
made by the following night.
Dolly was not much of a seamstress, she had her difficulties lifting a
hemline. This was also true of Catherine; it was in Catherine's makeup,
however, to pretend professional status in all fields, particularly those in
which she was least competent. She sent me to Verena's drygoods store for
seven yards of their choicest black satin. "With seven yards there ought to
be some bits left over: me and Dolly can trim our petticoats." Then she made
a show of tape-measuring my lengths and widths, which was sound procedure
except that she had no idea of how to apply such information to scissors and
cloth. "This little piece," she said, hacking off a yard, "it'd make
somebody lovely bloomers. And this here," snip, snip, "...a black satin
collar would dress up my old print considerable." You couldn't have covered
a midget's shame with the amount of material allotted me.
"Catherine, now dear, we mustn't think of our own needs," Dolly warned
her.
They worked without recess through the afternoon. The Judge, during his
usual visit, was forced to thread needles, a job Catherine despised; "Makes
my flesh crawl, like stuffing worms on a fishhook." At suppertime she called
quits and went home to her house among the butterbean stalks.
But a desire to finish had seized Dolly; and a talkative exhilaration.
Her needle soared in and out of the satin; like the seams it made, her
sentences linked in a wiggling line. "Do you think," she said, "that Verena
would let me give a party? Now that I have so many friends? There's Riley,
there's Charlie, couldn't we ask Mrs. County, Maude and Elizabeth? In the
spring; a garden party-with a few fireworks. My father was a great hand for
sewing. A pity I didn't inherit it from him. So many men sewed in the old
days; there was one friend of Papa's that won I don't know how many prizes
for his scrap-quilts. Papa said it relaxed him after the heavy rough work
around a farm. Collin. Will you promise me something? I was against your
coming here, I've never believed it was right, raising a boy in a houseful
of women. Old women and their prejudices. But it was done; and somehow I'm
not worried about it now: you'll make your mark, you'll get on. It's this
that I want you to promise me: don't be unkind to Catherine, try not to grow
too far away from her. Some nights it keeps me wide awake to think of her
forsaken. There," she held up my suit, "let's see if it fits."
It pinched in the crotch and in the rear drooped like an old man's
B.V.D.'s; the legs were wide as sailor pants, one sleeve stopped above my
wrist, the other shot past my fingertips. It wasn't, as Dolly admitted, very
stylish. "But when we've painted on the bones..." she said. "Silver paint.
Verena bought some once to dress up a flagpole-before she took against the
government. It should be somewhere in the attic, that little can. Look under
the bed and see if you can locate my slippers."
She was forbidden to get up, not even Catherine would permit that. "It
won't be any fun if you scold," she said and found the slippers herself. The
courthouse clock had chimed eleven, which meant it was ten-thirty, a dark
hour in a town where respectable doors are locked at nine; it seemed later
still because in the next room Verena had closed her ledgers and gone to
bed. We took an oil lamp from the linen closet and by its tottering light
tiptoed up the ladder into the attic. It was cold up there; we set the lamp
on a barrel and lingered near it as though it were a hearth. Sawdust heads
that once had helped sell St. Louis hats watched while we searched; wherever
we put our hands it caused a huffy scuttling of fragile feet. Overturned, a
carton of mothballs clattered on the floor. "Oh, dear, oh, dear," cried
Dolly, giggling, "if Verena hears that she'll call the Sheriff."
We unearthed numberless brushes; the paint, discovered beneath a welter
of dried holiday wreaths, proved not to be silver but gold. "Of course
that's better, isn't it? Gold, like a king's ransom. Only do see what else
I've found." It was a shoebox secured with twine. "My valuables," she said,
opening it under the lamp. A hollowed honeycomb was demonstrated against the
light, a hornet's nest and a clove-stuck orange that age had robbed of its
aroma. She showed me a blue perfect jaybird's egg cradled in cotton.
"I was too principled. So Catherine stole the egg for me, it was her
Christmas present." She smiled; to me her face seemed a moth suspended
beside the lamp's chimney, as daring, as destructible. "Charlie said that
love is a chain of love. I hope you listened and understood him. Because
when you can love one thing," she held the blue egg as preciously as the
Judge had held a leaf, "you can love another, and that is owning, that is
something to live with. You can forgive everything. Well," she sighed,
"we're not getting you painted. I want to amaze Catherine; we'll tell her
that while we slept the little people finished your suit. She'll have a
fit."
Again the courthouse clock was floating its message, each note like a
banner stirring above the chilled and sleeping town. "I know it tickles,"
she said, drawing a branch of ribs across my chest, "but I'll make a mess if
you don't hold still." She dipped the brush and skated it along the sleeves,
the trousers, designing golden bones for my arms and legs. "You must
remember all the compliments: there should be many," she said as she
immodestly observed her work. "Oh dear, oh dear..." She hugged herself, her
laughter rollicked in the rafters. "Don't you see..."
For I was not unlike the man who painted himself into a comer. Freshly
gilded front and back, I was trapped inside the suit: a fine fix for which I
blamed her with a pointing finger.
"You have to whirl," she teased. "Whirling will dry you." She
blissfully extended her arms and turned in slow ungainly circles across the
shadows of the attic floor, her plain kimono billowing and her thin feet
wobbling in their slippers. It was as though she had collided with another
dancer: she stumbled, a hand on her forehead, a hand on her heart.
Far on the horizon of sound a train whistle howled, and it wakened me
to the bewilderment puckering her eyes, the contractions shaking her face.
With my arms around her, and the paint bleeding its pattern against her, I
called Verena; somebody help me!
Dolly whispered, "Hush now, hush."
Houses at night announce catastrophe by their sudden pitiable radiance.
Catherine dragged from room to room switching on lights unused for years.
Shivering inside my wrecked costume I sat in the glare of the entrance hall
sharing a bench with the Judge. He had come at once, wearing only a raincoat
slung over a flannel nightshirt. Whenever Verena approached he brought his
naked legs together primly, like a young girl. Neighbors, summoned by our
bright windows, came softly inquiring. Verena spoke to them on the porch:
her sister. Miss Dolly, she'd suffered a stroke. Doctor Carter would allow
none of us in her room, and we accepted this, even Catherine who, when she'd
set ablaze the last light, stood leaning her head against Dolly's door.
There was in the hall a hat-tree with many antlers and a mirror.
Dolly's velvet hat hung there, and at sunrise, as breezes trickled through
the house, the mirror reflected its quivering veil.
Then I knew as good as anything that Dolly had left us. Some moments
past she'd gone by unseen; and in my imagination I followed her. She had
crossed the square, had come to the church, now she'd reached the hill. The
Indian grass gleamed below her, she had that far to go.
It was a journey I made with Judge Cool the next September. During the
intervening months we had not often encountered each other-once we met on
the square and he said to come see him any time I felt like it. I meant to,
yet whenever I passed Miss Bell's boarding house I looked the other way.
I've read that past and future are a spiral, one coil containing the
next and predicting its theme. Perhaps this is so; but my own life has
seemed to me more a series of closed circles, rings that do not evolve with
the freedom of a spiral: for me to get from one to the other has meant a
leap, not a glide. What weakens me is the lull between, the wait before I
know where to jump. After Dolly died I was a long while dangling.
My own idea was to have a good time.
I hung around Phil's Cafe winning free beers on the pin-ball machine;
it was illegal to serve me beer, but Phil had it on his mind that someday I
would inherit Verena's money and maybe set him up in the hotel business. I
slicked my hair with brilliantine and chased off to dances in other towns,
shined flashlights and threw pebbles at girls' windows late at night I knew
a Negro in the country who sold a brand of gin called Yellow Devil. I
courted anyone who owned a car.
Because I didn't want to spend a waking moment in the Talbo house. It
was too thick with air that didn't move. Some stranger occupied the kitchen,
a pigeon-toed colored girl who sang all day, the wavery singing of a child
bolstering its spirit in an ominous place. She was a sorry cook. She let the
kitchen's geranium plant perish. I had approved of Verena hiring her. I
thought it would bring Catherine back to work.
On the contrary, Catherine showed no interest in routing the new girl.
For she'd retired to her house in the vegetable garden. She had taken the
radio with her and was very comfortable. "I've put down the load, and it's
down to stay. I'm after my leisure," she said. Leisure fattened her, her
feet swelled, she had to cut slits in her shoes. She developed exaggerated
versions of Dolly's habits, such as a craving for sweet foods; she had her
suppers delivered from the drugstore, two quarts of ice cream. Candy
wrappers rustled in her lap. Until she became too gross, she contrived to
squeeze herself into clothes that had belonged to Dolly; it was as though,
in this way, she kept her friend with her.
Our visits together were an ordeal, and I made them grudgingly,
resenting it that she depended on me for company. I let a day slip by
without seeing her, then three, a whole week once. When I returned after an
absence I imagined the silences in which we sat, her offhand manner, were
meant reproachfully; I was too conscience-ridden to realize the truth, which
was that she didn't care whether or not I came. One afternoon she proved it.
Simply, she removed the cotton wads that jacked up her jaws. Without the
cotton her speech was as unintelligible to me as it ordinarily was to
others. It happened while I was making an excuse to shorten my call. She
lifted the lid of a pot-bellied stove and spit the cotton into the fire; and
her cheeks caved in, she looked starved. I think now this was not a vengeful
gesture: it was intended to let me know that I was under no obligation: the
future was something she preferred not to share.
Occasionally Riley rode me around-but I couldn't count on him or his
car; neither were much available since he'd become a man of affairs. He had
a team of tractors clearing ninety acres of land he'd bought on the
outskirts of town; he planned to build houses there. Several locally
important persons were impressed by another scheme of his: he thought the
town should put up a silkmill in which every citizen would be a stockholder;
aside from the possible profits, having an industry would increase our
population. There was an enthusiastic editorial in the paper about this
proposal; it went on to say that the town should be proud of having produced
a man of young Henderson's enterprise. He grew a mustache; he rented an
office and his sister Elizabeth worked as his secretary. Maude Riordan was
installed at the State University, and almost every week-end he drove his
sisters over there; it was supposed to be because the girls were so lonesome
for Maude. The engagement of Miss Maude Riordan to Mr. Riley Henderson was
announced in the Courier on April Fool's Day.
They were married the middle of June in a double-ring ceremony. I acted
as an usher, and the Judge was Riley's best man. Except for the Henderson
sisters, all the bridesmaids were society girls Maude had known at the
University; the Courier called them beautiful debutantes, a chivalrous
description. The bride carried a bouquet of jasmine and lilac; the groom
wore spats and stroked his mustache. They received a sumptuous table-load of
gifts. I gave them six cakes of scented soap and an ashtray.
After the wedding I walked home with Verena under the shade of her
black umbrella. It was a blistering day, heatwaves jiggled like a
sound-graph of the celebrating Baptist bells, and the rest of summer, a
vista rigid as the noon street, lengthened before me. Summer, another
autumn, winter again: not a spiral, but a circle confined as the umbrella's
shadow. If I ever were to make the leap-with a heartskip, I made it.
"Verena, I want to go away."
We were at the garden gate; "I know. I do myself," she said, closing
her umbrella. "I'd hoped to make a trip with Dolly. I wanted to show her the
ocean." Verena had seemed a tall woman because of her authoritative
carriage; now she stooped slightly, her head nodded. I wondered that I ever
could have been so afraid of her, for she'd grown feminine, fearful, she
spoke of prowlers, she burdened the doors with bolts and spiked the roof
with lightning rods. It had been her custom the first of every month to
stalk around collecting in person the various rents owed her; when she
stopped doing this it caused an uneasiness in the town, people felt wrong
without their rainy day. The women said she's got no family, she's lost
without her sister; their husbands blamed Dr. Morris Rite: he knocked the
gumption out of her, they said; and, much as they had quarreled with Verena,
held it against him. Three years ago, when I returned to this town, my first
task was to sort the papers of the Talbo estate, and among Verena's private
possessions, her keys, her pictures of Maudie Laura Murphy, I found a
postcard. It was dated two months after Dolly died, at Christmas, and it was
from Paraguay: As we say down here, Feliz Navidad. Do you miss me? Morris.
And I thought, reading it, of how her eyes had come permanently to have an
uneven cast, an inward and agonized gaze, and I remembered how her eyes,
watering in the brassy sunshine of Riley's wedding day, had straightened
with momentary hope: "It could be a long trip. I've considered selling a
few-a few properties. We might take a boat; you've never seen the ocean." I
picked a sprig of honeysuckle from the vine flowering on the garden fence,
and she watched me shred it as if I were pulling apart her vision, the
voyage she saw for us. "Oh," she brushed at the mole that spotted her cheek
like a tear, "well," she said in a practical voice, "what are your
ambitions?"
So it was not until September that I called upon the Judge, and then it
was to tell him good-bye. The suitcases were packed, Amos Legrand had cut my
hair ("Honey, don't you come back here baldheaded. What I mean is, they'll
try to scalp you up there, cheat you every way they can."); I had a new suit
and new shoes, gray fedora ("Aren't you the cafs pajamas, Mr. Collin
Fenwick?" Mrs. County exclaimed. "A lawyer you're going to be? And already
dressed like one. No, child, I won't kiss you. I'd be mortified to dirty
your finery with my bakery mess. You write us, hear?"): that very evening a
train would rock me northward, parade me through the land to a city where in
my honor pennants flurried.
At Miss Bell's they told me the Judge had gone out I found him on the
square, and it gave me a twinge to see him, a spruce sturdy figure with a
Cherokee rose sprouting in his buttonhole, encamped among the old men who
talk and spit and wait. He took my arm and led me away from them; and while
he amiably advised me of his own days as a law student, we strolled past the
church and out along the River Woods road. This road or this tree; I closed
my eyes to fix their image, for I did not believe I would return, did not
foresee that I would travel the road and dream the tree until they had drawn
me back.
It was as though neither of us had known where we were headed. Quietly
astonished, we surveyed the view from the cemetery hill, and arm in arm
descended to the summer-burned, September-burnished field. A waterfall of
color flowed across the dry and strumming leaves; and I wanted then for the
Judge to hear what Dolly had told me: that it was a grass harp, gathering,
telling, a harp of voices remembering a story. We listened.
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